complicated [lucaya]

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Lucas' POV;

"Are you even paying attention to me?" Riley's voice rang through my ears, drawing my attention back to her.

I hadn't been paying attention. "Of course I was, babe. I just got lost in your eyes." I smiled and laced my fingers with hers.

Riley faked a smile and tilted her head like a puppy. "Oh Lucas," Then she glared. "You weren't even looking at me. What the hell."

She's not as naive as we take her for. At least I tried. "Sorry. This chemistry test just has me really psyched out." Not true. I'm completely prepared, but I can't let Riley know that I was actually thinking about Maya.

"You're going to be fine. You're great at chemistry."

I chuckled as a played with her hand. "You're thinking of Farkle, sweetheart."

She kissed my cheek, "Fine, lets squeeze in a study session tonight." Her brown eyes were hopeful. "I can come over around seven."

I bit my lip, "My mom won't be home." Softly pecking her lips, I twirled her brown hair around my finger. "We can finally be alone."

Riley's face turned red and she pressed her forehead against mine. "I want our first time to be special."

"It will be." I reassured her and kissed her nose. "I promise."

She sighed, "I'm not ready, Lucas." I saw the worry in her eyes. "I don't want to be like those other girls."

"You're nothing like those girls Riley. That's why I like you."

"Have you ever actually made love to someone else."

Taken by surprise, I stayed silent because I already knew the answer. But If I tell her with who, things will get bad in a split second. "Luke, I really need to know."

"Why do you need to know?" Wrong answer. "It doesn't make a difference. It's in the past."

Riley nodded and looked away from me. "Whatever, dude." She slung her purple backpack over her shoulder and stood up. "I'm not coming over tonight. And you can call me when you're able to be honest with me."

I watched my girlfriend leave the courtyard without looking back. There was no right answer. Either I lie, and have her eventually find out the hard way. Or I tell her the truth and suffer the inevitable drama that follows.

Everything with Riley is always so black and white. That's why it's so hard for me to really be honest with her. I can never have layers with her, I always have to be one dimensional.

Becoming irritated with my self-inflicted problems, I groaned as I back up my books and left the courtyard.

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Maya's POV;

Focused on my painting, I blocked out my surroundings. I've been so stressed lately. Between Lucas, Riley, and Josh, it feels like I could implode at any moment. Lately it seems as though I'm not in control of my own life. Like the last few years have been nothing more than some twisted version of reality.

I'm pissed. I'm pissed at Josh for what he did to me. I'm pissed at Riley for being so self involved. I'm pissed at Lucas for talking me into things I know are wrong. 

That's why I'm angry. He makes me feel amazing for doing something shady. Because when he kisses me my mind goes blank. My body is numb. I forget about Riley. I forget that Lucas is someone else's boyfriend. Everything that's wrong about what we're doing goes away. 

But that doesn't make it any less wrong.

"I see Lucas finally got tired of slumming it with a skank."

Rolling my eyes, I set down brush and sigh. Can't this bitch leave me alone for one day? "Can I help you with something?"

Missy gave me a small, sarcastic laugh and sat on the stool next to me. She looked me up and down while giving me her classic fake smile. "I'm just trying to understand is all." I raised my brow. "I just think it's very un-Riley like for her to be so cool with you and Lucas hanging out."

"We work better as friends, and Riley understands that, is mostly okay with our friendship. Why do you care?"

She smirked, "What's the real reason you two called it quits?" I stared her down as she searched my face for answers. "You're not pregnant are you?"

I glared at her. "Most definitely not. He's into Riley. He's always been into Riley." And maybe that was true at one point. I wanted that to be the truth. "We were just having fun."

"If that's your story." Missy slid off the stool and dusted herself off. "I heard that they were arguing at lunch. Hope it had nothing to do with you." She shrugged and left me with my thoughts.

That girl is a pain in my ass, but she has a point for once. There is something going on with me and Lucas, and Riley will figure it out eventually.

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Silence. I looked at Riley, whose eyes were fixed on Lucas. I sighed as I reorganized my locker. "So.. what happened today?"

"Do you think Lucas has ever made love to someone?" She paused and looked at me. "You probably no more about this part of his life than I do."

I almost hesitated. "Lucas doesn't know what it means to love someone. You're the first girl he's actually cared about."

Riley glanced back at Lucas and sighed. "What if he thinks I suck in bed. I've never done anything remotely sexual."

"Where is this coming from, Riles?"

"I don't know," She leaned against the lockers. "It felt like he was hinting towards it, but I feel like it's too soon. I'm not like you Maya."

Taken by surprise, I looked at Riley and pursed my lips. "What exactly are you trying to imply?"

"Nothing bad, just that you have a reputation for a reason." She shrugged, "I'm just not like you or Missy and every other girl he's been with."

Nodding my head, I slammed my locker and took a deep breath. "Just don't do let Lucas pressure you into anything you're not ready for."

"I didn't mean to upset you..." Riley looked down at her feet, trying to play innocent.

I sighed and shook my head, "Yet you said it anyway."

Riley has been rather passive aggressive with me since Lucas and I 'broke up,' and honestly, it's starting to get old. I didn't expect her to pretend nothing ever happened, that would be unrealistic, but there's really no reason for her to get snippy with me every time Luke's name comes up.

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A/N: Several months later... finally posting a new chapter. This is really just a filler to see where Lucas, Maya and even Riley's heads are at, but the next chapter will be very Lucaya focused. SO very sorry for slow updates. College is kicking my ass.