Recovery (A Justin Bieber fan fiction)

Not again (6)

Lexie's POV

Justin and Selena.

I don't know why but it felt like I just got shot right in the heart. Why am I Jealous? I can't like him he's a dick.

"Can I help you?" I snap out of my gaze to see Selena standing there with her hands on her hips giving my a death glare.

"Uh.. No sorry.. Uh.. Carry on." I feel my cheeks turn hot and I quickly run out of there completely embarrassed.

Good one Lexie. Good one.

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I look at my phone 3:10PM. I decide I should go pay my Mum and Dad a visit.

On the way to the cemetery I decide to get some flowers. Entering the flower shop I grab my Mum and Dads favorite. White roses. Like what they had at their wedding. I feel my eyes stinging in the memory of them but I hold back my tears and pay for the flowers leaving to the cemetery.

Once I reach the cemetery I place the roses onto the their graves and sit down looking at them.

"I miss you guys. So much. I wish I could've said a proper good bye. I regret that day so much. I should've been the one to die not you guys. You just wanted to protect me. I was just to blind to see that. But I see that now. I hate myself. It was all my fault." The tears roll down my cheek like waterfalls. "Dad, I miss you so much. I miss going down to the lake and playing around with you and every other family thinking we were crazy. It didn't matter though because we were having so much fun. You would piggyback me everywhere and we would play dragons. I was always the princess remember? You would always be their to protect me. But I wasn't there to protect you the one time I needed too. I miss you Dad. I am so sorry. I love you so much."

"Mum. I regret everything I said to you on the day. I didn't mean it. I would never want a different Mum. Never in a million years. I was so damn stupid for saying that to you. Words can't describe how much I miss you. I was so excited for my wedding day. When Dad would be walking me down the isle. And you would be sitting there crying. Like the movies. Not one day goes bye that I'm not missing you. When we would cook. And play dolls. Or you would help me with my girl problems. Who do I talk to now? I need you and Dad back. I love you so much. I'm sorry."

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When I got home nobody else was there. Which i was happy about. I wasn't in the mood for talking.

I hoped straight I'm the shower and did my usual stuff. At the end of the shower I stood there. Just staring at the razor. I picked it up and threw it to the other side of the room. I was stronger than this.

I got out of the shower and wrapped my towel around my body. I walked to my room and pulled on my bra and panties. I heard my phone begin to ring and moaned when I realised it was down stairs. Seeing as no one was home I quickly ran downstairs in my lingerie. As I picked up my phone it stopped ringing. 'Private number'. Well that was a waste of time.

"Um Lexie, what are you doing?" I froze recognising the voice. Justin. I quickly grabbed a pillow and self consciously covered my body.

"Uh.. My phone was ringing.. I had to get it." I turned my body around to see him staring with his mouth open. He quickly refocused himself and gave me a light smirk walking closer to me.

"Well, lucky me." I gave him a confused look and suddenly he had me pinned against the wall. I gasped in fright but was suddenly locked in his gaze. His eyes were so beautiful. I couldn't help but look down at his perfectly plump, pink lips.

He started inching closer and I felt his minty breath on my lips. I couldn't get myself to pull away. As soon as his lips brushed against mine I felt I had to have more. Placed my hand on the back of his neck making our lips crash together. I felt electricity run through my body. He put his hands down to my waist while I played with the hair on the back of his head. He slid his tongue on my bottom lip asking for entrance and I excepted, wanting more. His tongue danced with mine and the feeling was indescribable. This turned into a hot make out session lasting 15 minutes until there was a knock on the door.

Me and Justin both looked at each other breathless our eyes growing wide. I looked down realising I was still in my lingerie and felt my cheeks go bright red.

"You get that.. I'm gonna go change." I managed to say between breaths. I quickly raced upstairs and got changed then plopped onto my bed sighing. I couldn't deny that kiss was different. I've never felt sparks like that before. Even with Noah. Uh even hearing his name brings my blood to boil I hate him.

*flashback*

"Mum how do I look?! Does my bum look big? Is this dress to bright. Is my hair to done up? Am I...."

"Honey! Relax you look beautiful! Noah will love it!"

"Okay thanks Mum, gosh I'm sweating like a pig! Okay I'm ready to go let's go mum!" It was me and Noah's one year anniversary. God I loved him. He was my everything.

"Okay, we're here bye sweetie have fun!" I jumped out of the car and fixed up my outfit. Noah told me to be here at 7 and it was 6:48. Oh well doesn't matter if I'm a but early does it?

I walked up to his front door and knocked. No reply. I tried twice more but still didn't succeed. I decided to let myself in, Noah won't mind.

Letting myself in I walked up the stairs and into his bedroom.

"Noah?" I slightly pushed open the door and my whole world stopped.

"Lexie! It's not what it looks like! I love you baby!" Noah pleaded wrapping a sheet around his naked body.

"You don't love me! You never did! Go get fucked I don't want you in my life anymore never talk to me again!" With that I slammed the door in his face and ran home crying my eyes out. I can't believe I just walked in on Noah fucking the school slut! I thought he loved me?

*end of flashback*

That was a year ago and I haven't talked to that asshole since. I hate his guts. He broke me. I loved him. I told myself from then on I'll never love anyone again. I have to stay away from Justin. I'm broken enough I can't be broken anymore. I have to stay away from him. With that I fell asleep.