Recovery (A Justin Bieber fan fiction)

Clubbing (11)

A/N - I had to write this twice because it didn't save. Sorry it took so long.

Lexie's POV

It all made sense. Maybe Justin did have feelings for me? Probably not though.

I don't know what's gonna happen once school starts. 2 more days! Justin will probably go back to slutting around. I don't care. Do I? I felt my phone buzz knocking me out of my thoughts.

'Em <3- what are you doing tomorrow?! xox'

'Me- Probably just staying home with Justin xox'

'Em <3- Okay.' Well that's weird?

'Me- Come over if you want bring the girls.'

'Em- Okay! xo'

I put my phone down next to me and looked out the window. The sky was clear and the storm had moved on. Well may as well go for a run. It was about 2 o'clock. I put on my gear and left leaving a note for Justin to tell him I was out. Starting off it felt nice to feel the wind against my skin. I hadn't been out running in a while.

I ran along the track I usually go on. Once I got to the end there was the same beautiful place that I know and love. It is a gorgeous meadow covered in millions of different flowers. There is also a gorgeous crystal blue lake. This is where I went after Noah cheated on me. I would come here and cry. This was my little escape. I love it.

A took off my nikes and socks and dipped my feet into the cool water. This is a great place to think, so that's exactly what I did. Thoughts of Justin went through my mind. I know I like him but I'm gonna push that away. He will just hurt me. All boys will. All he does is sleep with every girl he lays his eye on. I'm not gonna let myself do that. He's a friend. Only a friend. I need to stop this, whatever me and Justin are doing. But I feel amazing when I'm with him. He makes me feel things I have never felt before. I don't know what to do?

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On the run home I had a weird feeling i was being watched. Hm. Oh well it was probably just the food all me and Justin ate making me feel weird.

As I walked in a saw Ryan on the couch.

"Hey Ry!"

"Hey Lex."

"Where is everyone?"

"They all went out to get food."

"Oh okay. Hey Ryan? I know I haven't paid much attention to you since Mum and Dad uh.. Passed away. And I'm sorry. Are you doing okay?" I realised a couple days ago I haven't paid much attention to how Ryan has been feeling.

"I'm alright Lex, it's been hard but we just need to put it behind us. That's what they would've wanted. They are watching us Lex, they want us to move on. They may not be here but we are all still a family. I just want to make them proud. They would want us to be happy."

"I love you Ryan." I said giving him a huge hug.

"I love you too, now get off me and go have a shower. You stink."

"Whatever." I said getting up and poking my tongue at him before skipping upstairs to take a shower.

After my shower I put on jeans and a plain white tee with a jumper over top. I dried my hair and just tied it up in a messy bun.

Oh good everyone is here. I walked into the lounge and sat next to Em.

"Hey Em!" I said giving her a nudge.

"Hey, I'm just going to go toilet be right back."

"So what are we doing tonight?" Chaz said.

"Going to the club!!!" Sarah yelled out of nowhere.