Recovery (A Justin Bieber fan fiction)

Fighting (8)

Lexie's POV

I woke up to Louisa coming In and jumping on my bed. It didn't hurt at all cause she was as light as a feather. Perfect bitch. Seriously I swear she doesn't have one flaw. It's so annoying. shes just drop dead gorgeous.

"Get up Lexie! We are going to the Mall!" She said shaking me.

"5 more minutes." I say rolling over so my back is facing her.

"Lexie come on we are going In half an hour!"

"I can't be bothered." I groan staying where I am.

"I'll shout you Starbucks?" And with that I jump out of bed and run into the bathroom.

"That's what I thought." I hear Louisa giggle as she walks out of my room.

As I stand in the shower all I can think about is Justin and Selena. Why does he lead me on if he's just going to run off to her?! God he's annoying! Why do I even like him!

I hop out of the shower and put on my daily make up. I don't put on to much I hate the look of bright orange cake faces that basically look like they drew it on with crayons. I just try look natural. I walk over to my wardrobe and put on a pair of light wash Jeans with a plain white tee and a denim jacket. I straighten my hair and leave it out to do it's own thing. I then grab my phone and wallet and race out to where everyone is waiting for me.

Ryan was driving and in the passenger seat was Sarah. Louisa, Chaz and Emily were in the middle. And to my luck I was next to Justin. Yayyy. Note the sarcasm.

"So. Me and the girls are gonna go get our outfits for my party next week while you guys can go do your boys things what ever that involves. Then we can meet at Starbucks after and then do whatever." Louisa announced. We all agreed and once we got to the mall the girls split off from the boys.

We went to the best dress shop they have here and straight away Louisa and Emily found about 6 dresses each to try on.

"Lexxxxxxxxxx, what do you think would impress Ryan!" Sarah moaned leaning on my shoulder looking depressed.

"Hmmm, how about this?" I pulled out the ugliest dress I could find and she just stared at for 10 seconds then rolled her eyes.

"Haha. Very funny. I'm serious Lexie! I wanna look good!"

"I don't know, you could pull off any dress I don't think it will matter what dress you wear." I say honestly rolling my eyes. Sarah is one of those girls who looks good in everything. She has natural beauty that manages to look good in anything. Probably why she's been asked various times to be a model on TV ads or magazine covers or for a clothing label. Let's just say... She gets the guys.

After about an hour we pick out our outfits and head off to Starbucks to meet the boys.

"10 years later gosh!" Chaz moans taking a sip of his Starbucks.

"We're girls what do you expect." Louisa says walking over to him giving him a small kiss on the cheek. I order my strawberry sand cream frappiccino paying with Louisa's money of course, like she said.

"Where's Justin?" Emily asks taking a sip of her coffee.

"He bumped into Selena about half an hour ago and I haven't seen him since." Ryan replys.

"Speak of the devil." Chaz says, I turn my head to see Justin walking In looking pissed off. He sits next to me not saying anything and immediately turns on his phone ignoring the presence of everyone else here.

"Well, hi to you too." Emily says making us all chuckle but Justin still just sits there saying nothing. Everyone goes back to minding their own business apart from me. Why is he being so rude?

"What's up your ass?" I say to him giving him a smirk.

"Nothing. Piss off."

"Well why are you being rude to everyone." I say becoming slightly angry with his rudeness.

"Lexie. Mind your own fucking business."

"Well maybe you should stop being such a dick and respect your friends."

"Lexie, just shut up okay I don't care."

"Don't care about what?"

"You. Lexie. I don't care about you. Seriously just get fucked." He says looking up to me and glaring then back at his phone. Well that hurt.

"Okay." I say getting up and leaving. He doesn't even care about me. Why do I have to fucking care about him. He's a complete dick. I walk out the mall and over to the big fountain where nobody is. I feel my eyes start to sting and A cold tear roll down my cheek. I quickly wipe it away. Why am I crying over Justin. He's just a selfish dick. Who's also a player.

"Lexie? I'm sorry I didn't mean what I said, I'm just not in a good mood." I turn around to see Justin awkwardly scratching the back of his neck and I just roll my eyes at him.

"Well you obviously did. It defiantly seemed like you meant it." I said sharply.

"I didn't Lexie I swear."

"Just shut up okay. You're just a dick and a player and I don't care about you either so it's even." I said. It was obviously I lie. Of course I care about him.

"Wow Lexie. I just wanted to apologise. Doesn't mean you need to be a bitch." He says harshly. I get up and walk over to him.

"Me? How am I the bitch here. I don't go around saying shit to you and being bipolar. Why did you even kiss me? So you could just get in my pants. Do you actually realise I have feelings. You flirt with me all the time then straight away you go around and stick your tongue down Selena's throat. What do you want to get out from me huh? Do you want to hurt me? To lead me on and then just pretend nothing ever happened. All you are is a man whore. And a complete dick. Just stay away from me okay." I yell. God I hate him right now.

"Why do you even care Lexie. It was just a kiss it's not a big deal!" Justin's says rather harshly.

"Just leave me alone okay? Go fuck Selena." I say starting to walk away tears falling down my cheeks.

"How mature, going home to cry to your Mummy." I completely freeze. Did he actually just say that. I feel myself starting to cry more. If you can't remember. My mum died. No ones dared to bring her up since then.

"Lexie! I didn't mean it li-"

"Save it okay... Just leave me alone." I say in between sobs and running home crying. Sort of annoying that my 'home' is Justin's house.

I can't believe him. That day at his pool was amazing messing around with him. He made me laugh for the first time in 2 months. But now I've seen the other side to him. I didn't know he could be such a dick. I hate him.

That night I didn't leave my room. I cried all night. Justin brought back something I was starting to forget. That night all the pain came back to me. I couldn't seem to handle it. I did something I haven't done in a long time. I harmed myself.