Nothing To U. | Lil Peep

Promise.

I apologize in advance for this not being a chapter update and I thank everyone who stays to read this.

This is an Appreciation post.

Meet my role model/ my everything/ my whole heart/ my hero/ the only person who has been there for me my whole life/ my gorgeously stunning mother Shannon Danyell William Kingsley.

I want to take a moment to thank my mother for everything she's done for me, for sacrificing her whole life for me.

Ever since I was a In my moms stomach she has done nothing but sacrifice for me and for that I'll be forever great full.

My mother raised me by herself my whole life my father wasn't around most of it so she did it alone, her family was never helpful and since my dad wasn't really around neither was his family, so my mother did it alone she worked hard everyday to provide for us, to give us a nice house, a nice car, nice clothes and even after working hard all day she'd still come home and cook a hot delicious home cooked meal.

My mother became pregnant with my sister Brooklynn but my sister grew wrong in her stomach which caused her to lose my sister and a part of her stomach.

(Rest in peace Brooklyn, I love you little sister)

Losing my sister and part of her stomach made my mom become sick and depressed, but my mom still stayed as strong as she could for me, even when she was at her worst she still sacrificed for me.

My mother is my hero.

After years of pain and fighting my mother finally passed on April second 2017

My mom didn't deserve to pass nor did she deserve to go through the things she did, even though my mother was constantly "tested" and wronged she still had a smile on her face.

My mother was a kind hearted wonderful beautiful person who deserved the world but didn't get it. I'm great full I had her as a mother and not a day will go by that I won't think of her, that I won't miss her, that I won't love her.

Today marks nine months without you mom. Yesterday I entered a new year without you and it was hard and different, mom I know I let you down, I know I wasn't the best daughter and I didn't make the best choices all the time but I promise you that this year I WILL live for you, I won't let your spirit die and I won't let you down any longer.

I will make you proud mom I promise that, I will prove all your/ my terrible family wrong I will show them that you are a GOOD mother, and that I'm not a failure and I'm not going to be the drop out junkie they think I am. I promise you mom everyone will be sorry that they ever doubted us.

I love you momma, And I miss you rest easy❤️

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Thank you to everyone who took the time out of there day to read this, this was mostly just for me to rant and I'm truly thankful if you read this.

I promise to try and update as soon as possible:) I love you all.