Breath • Fack

three.

Finn POV:

I hate that I left Jack. He didnt deserve it.

I left him to make friends with bullies.

I just wish I knew what he was going to tell me. But he was interrupted, by Millie of course...

I got out of my bed, because staring at my ceiling deep in thoughts was depressing.

Jack called me and asked if I wanted to walk to school with him.

I said yes, although I was supposed to be with Millie.

Because I like Millie! I think.. I am straight I like girls.. I think....

I met up with Jack. He was so little. It was adorable.

Wait no this cant be happening.

His gorgeous freckles splattered across his face. His curly brown hair fluffing and falling over his face.

He looked like he had stepped off of the red carpet.

I cant be thinking this.

"Finn.. uh, knock knock is Finn home?"

"What u-uh yeah I'm h-here"

Jack took his inhaler and sucked in two puffs.

"Your asthma still bothering you I see?!"

"Yeah, it got worse in 8th grade"

I didnt want him to say the words I think he might say. I might just burst into tears.

I miss Jack so much.

Will he ever forgive me?

Jack POV:

I called Finn and asked if he wanted to walk to school together.

When I walked out of my door and across the street to meet up with him he was like out of it.

I tried to get his attention until he came back to.

We had some small conversations. It was still awkward.

You could still cut the tension with a knife.

What if he left because I was a loser, I wasnt good enough to be Finn Wolfhard's friend.

I just needed to take a breath. I sucked in two puffs of my inhaler, then he asked me about that.

I didnt tell him it got worse after he left.

We eventually showed up to school.

We parted our own ways. Him to his friends and me to mine.

I didnt feel like being here especially not today.

I ended up faking being sick and went home.

I just sat on my bed so deep in thoughts I didnt know if I wanted to leave them.

"Jack I wont let them hurt you anymore. I love you more than anything in the world. Babe, remember that"

We were sitting in the living room treating the cuts and bruises I had received from Finn's old bully friends.

"I'm so so sorry that I ever hung out with them. I am a sorry excuse for a friend and more importantly a boyfriend..."

Then I came to when I got a phone call from my mom.

She went on about asking me if I was ok. All this stuff and I just wanted to lay in my bed in the silence.

Yeah, I'd rather be a lover than a fighter
'Cause all my life, I've been fighting
Never felt a feeling of comfort
All this time, I've been hiding
And I never had someone to call my own, oh nah
I'm so used to sharing
Love only left me alone
But I'm at one with the silence

Silence by Marshmello

I didnt want to fight anymore I just want to find love.

But all I find is the silence.

No comfort and no one for me.

I am just at one with the silence.

This chapter is a bit over the place. I promise this book gets better. I just have to get through the rough first.

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