Breath • Fack

six.

Suicide thoughts in this chapter. If this bothers you I suggest you stop at the part where Jack gets out of the shower.

I fell asleep on Finn's couch last night.

When I awoke to the small amount of light coming in through the window Finn was in the kitchen cooking something.

It smelled so good.

I walked over to the counter and picked up a piece of bacon and ate it.

Finns eyes locked with mine and I couldnt help but smile and stand there as my face heated up.

We sat there and ate the pancakes Finn had made.

We hung out all day.

I walked into the bathroom to shower because I needed to go home, but if I was gross my mom might say something.

I was deep on my thoughts in the shower.

Why am I scared to love such a sweet boy. Loving him feels right. But it feels wrong.

It feels like I am going to get hurt. I am being hurt. I dont know if he loves me.

I stepped out into the bathroom and put on the clothes Finn gave me to borrow.

I looked in the mirror that had fog covering it.

I finally walked back into Finn's room.

"Hey, I love you Mills. I got to go. Jacks here and I dont want him to hear us."

I heard the words and dropped the towel and clothes that were in my hand and ran. I got all the way to the door.

I was stopped by a hand that whipped my body around.

The tears we streaming down my red cheeks.

I looked at Finn through my watery eyes and just dropped to the floor.

"Finn I cant be with someone that hurts me."

"Jack please I need to explain."

"What is there to explain. It isnt a good relationship if one is getting hurt."

"Jack I never wanted to hurt you."

I couldnt stand there.

I ran out the door and down the street.

Not even caring if a car was coming at me.

I am not suicidal. I wouldnt purposely walk out in front of a car. But if a car was coming at me I might not move.

I shook the thought and I fell to the ground with no breath.

I grasped onto the cool metal pole.

Trying to catch my breath.

Wanting to live, but not caring if I did or not.

It all went black. All I could fell was the cool cement coming in contact with my skin.

I let out a breath I thought was going to be my last.

It all went black.

It all went blank.

If this chapter ending bothered you I'm sorry.

Just let me know.

I lowkey love this chapter.

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