Promise you'll remember me

IN THE PAST WE'RE LOVER'S???

As days passes by,my condition improves and I can even sit without the help or support of anyone or anything.I don't need to be nose feeded anymore.Even my head seems to get lighter and the ache slowly disappear.

I look at the calendar.Today was 21st,month February.
My mom have fever so we decided that she should stay in the apartment for a while.Sehun volunteered to stay with her in the apartment until she gets better.

So I was alone with my brother Jackson.Sehun sometimes cross my mind this may be because I find him strange or complicated.But I do get butterflies in my stomach when he's around.I don't know why.It's mystery.

"Dongsaeng,do you want to know why Sehun never told you about your past memories with him?" My brother looks serious.

"I'm really curious about that.Oppa can you please tell me why he never talk about it?"

"I don't know his reason.But maybe this can answer your problems" he handed me a notebook.

I'm a bit surprised.I opened it.It was written "My Precious Diary" on the front page of the book in a neatly beautiful handwriting.My name was written below it.
That means this was my diary book.But it was written from 2nd June,2017.

I ask him why it was wrote from the middle of the year.

"I'm really curious too why you started writing a diary from 2nd  June.It was the day Sehun started tutoring you.What surprise me more was the fact that you wrote a diary.Never once in your life you've written or recorded anything.Whatever it is,just read it.I will be taking a nap" he muttered.

My hearts beat faster than usual as I turned the pages.I read half of it already in a short time and I notice that I've been smiling like an idiot.It was sweet.It was about me and Sehun.
Then I flip the next page.There was a picture of both of us smiling.We look so happy.At the bottom of the photograph,it was written "We look so adorable Sehunah.I love you.Dt 5th Oct,2017".
By reading reading my diary and seeing the photograph,I'm seriously surprised and I nearly died of curiosity as we share that kind of memories.We really seems to be so in love.I thought.

"So we were a couple" I whisper.I continue reading.
Someone came in and I quickly hide my book under my pillow.It was Sehun.My hearts keep on pushing my chest so hard.My face keeps on getting heated up.I think I'm blushing.

He notice it and ask if I'm okay.I nodded and told him that nothing's wrong with me.He came here to give me lunch.My brother just woke up and ask Sehun if he will stay with me for a while until he gets back from the apartment.He have something to do.He says.
Sehun agreed and so my brother left us alone.

Sehun ask if I would like to each lunch now.I nodded my head.After I finish my lunch,he enquire if I wanted to take a walk and get fresh air outside.I nodded.

We walk around the campus.

"You are different from other patients...you can walk around without needing any support.You gets healed and better easily." He said.

"Well,since I get head and not leg operation,I don't need any support" I replied.

A kid was running towards us and I nearly fall down if Sehun had not catch me.

"See,you need a support" he hold my hand.
I've got butterflies in my stomach.Wait not only butterflies,but the whole zoo.

"I need a support for my head too.So can you tell me anything about us?I mean how we would spend time together....in the past" I twaddle.

"Why are you blushing?" He poke my cheek and smile.

"Ahhh!!! That guy hair colour will looks good on you" I burst out saying out of mortified.

"Who?where?" He ask curiously.

"There idiot"

"Brunette?"

"Yes" I smirk.

We returned back to the VIP room.My room.

He ask if I would like to listen songs.I nodded and he ask the songs that I wanted to listen.Since I had no choice,I ask him to play whatever he want.
He plays an English song and words were perfectly beautiful.
He look outside the window and seems to be really in a deep thought.

I ask the name of the song and he says "I wanna grow old with you".

He's still not staring at me even when he said that.I can tell that his eyes slowly gets watery.

"Uh...Sehunah are you okay? Your eyes.." I muttered.

"Ohh sorry....it was just a dirt in my eyes" he said and wipe his eyes.He wipe his tears away.

"Can you play Jonghyun's songs?" I request.

He nodded his head and played one of Jonghyun's songs.
It was sad and emotional song.It was sung in a duet.

"Jonghyun really had a good voice" I whisper.
"Sehunah please just turn it off"

He turned it off and there wad quiescent.My brother had just arrive.I ask him if  mom was doing fine.He nods and grin.
Sehun left shortly after that.

"Are you both alright?" He ask.

"Yes....of course oppa"

I took out my diary again and started reading it.It was becoming sadder and saddest by every next pages.
According to my diary,the song that I dedicated to him before  was the song he played today.It have the same name 'I wanna grow old with you'.

After I finish reading the whole diary,there's a void in my heart.I feel sorry for Sehun.I broke up with him.I hurt him.It was so unbelievably sad that I felt like it was someone else story and not mine.This is my past memories with Sehun?

I ask my brother if all these was really written by me or if it was just a composed diary.

He told me that it was true that it really happened before I had operation.He told me we were truly in loved with Sehun before.I don't know how to act right now.

But it makes alot of sense as I felt like I had known Sehun for a long time even though I cannot figure out who he was.But now after reading our past with Sehun,there's a spark.I feel different.