Those moments (Hayes grier)

Smoke

"What are we going to do now?" Taylor asked as if i had any idea either, were standing in front of what used to be my bedroom.
May and her mom are outside sitting in the car, me and Taylor have been happily dating for a week, i told him everything after he came over to May's ad asked why i wasn't with my own family, and trust me i tried to ignore the question by telling him we were sisters, but me and May don't really look alike. Were at my old house because i need to get something i left here, my diary. The thing I've been dreading to come get. No one is home, i was texting Hayes to make sure.
"I left it in my top drawer of my dresser" i say walking over to it.
"like this" i say pulling it out and staring at it like I've never seen anything like a quoted notebook before,
"you okay" Taylor says coming closer to me, pushing it down from my face and lifting up my head and putting his on mine,
"Its okay" i say to him
"yeah but are you?" he asks taking a step back
"i dont really know anymore, but come on we should get going" i say before walking past him, i go down the stairs and i go to my sisters room, my older sisters room, the person i trust with everything i own, my best friend and only friend for years, i see her on her bed. I run to her and hug her.
"where the hell have you been" she says hugging me back.
"away, with May. I miss you. And i love you so much. I don't know when I'm coming back or if i ever will but i love you, i need to go now" i say and kiss her on her cheek,
"i love you too, miss you baby" she says and walks me to the door,
"don't tell mom" i say as i open the door and let Taylor out first.
"bye" she says
"Bye" i say my heart breaking, if you don't have a sister imagine leaving your best friend behind. Or your dog, or a piece of yourself.
I wipe away a tear as i step into mama Boxen's car and Taylor is already inside, i don't buckle up or even make it to my seat before crashing to the floor of her minivan and crying,
"Drive mom" i hear May say as i also hear her unbuckle and come lay on the floor with me.
"Kacy" She says
"May" i say
"Your sister loves you, you know that" she says, as if i didn't know that
"yes, i know and it hurts" i say
"remember the reason why you left, not her, remember how bad they treated you, not her." she says
"But i left her, i left my best friend alone! With asshole parents!" i scream cry
"baby, it okay, i promise." Taylor bumps in
"babe, i'm sorry but does it look like its okay?" i look at him with a glare that scares me once i realize i'm giving it to him,
"no, it looks like your not okay" he says, which he's right. Im not okay, I've never been okay. Im always a broken mess. If he knew that. Then why did he start dating me.
When we arrive home i clean up. In the bathroom while Taylor is on my bed.
"hey wanna go meet some of my friends at the park?" Taylor asks
"Aren't all your friends reefer heads?" i ask and laugh
"Yeah, so," he says
"Soooo? Aren't they gonna be smokin" i say looking at him.
"your dads a reefer head, does that mean he smokes all the time?" he shots back
"Well damn, okay, ill go with you." i say as i walk into my room and grab my phone. We walk down stairs
"Hey I'm gonna go to the park with Taylor, is that okay?" i ask mama Boxen.
"yes be back before 5 hun, see you later" she says
"bye" i say going to the door and walking out.
We make our way to the park with little conversation, we get there and i see his friends, Luke, Bryan, Sebastian, and Destine who is the only other girl shes Luke's girlfriend.
"Hey y'all" i say walking up to them
"Hey girly" Destine says coming and giving me a side hug,
The boys say hey all at the same time, we all merge into a walk and walk to an abandon house,
"wanna go in?" luke asks us all
We all nod. "Why not" i say under my breath.
We go in and the first thing i hear is "wanna smoke" from Bryan.
I ignore them and go up the stairs, i see 2 bedroom and 1 bathroom. I go in the first one and find nothing nut a bed, surprisingly it looked nice and clean, the second one has a box in the middle of the floor, saying 'hi' i open it and inside is joints, i walk down stairs
"Y'all, look what i found" i say i look over the stairs. And they all look at me like I'm weird.
"no you'll love it" i say, i hand them to Luke
"damn girl!" he says with a joint already in his mouth, in. Between his teeth.
"Have one" he says handing me one, i take it.
I put it in between my teeth and he lights it for me.
I inhale and i don't cough. Its like I'm used to it, i smoke the entire thing and boom I'm high.
"Hey!" i say to Taylor
"Whats up" he says. I kiss him, he kisses back
"theres a bed upstairs" i speak
"your high" he says pushing me off of him
"well don't be an asshole" i say
He pushes me ip against a wall "stop being a little whore" he says and kisses me
Is this gonna be one of those relationships? Like what the fuck is this.
"lets go upstairs" i beg
"whore" he says and practically pulls me upstairs.
I kiss him once we get in the room with the bed. I take off my shirt and he does the same, then my pants the his pants. "wait, do you have a rubber?" i ask out of breath from making out, he goes to his wallet and gets one. We do it for not even 2 min before luke and Destine come in the room making out, i got freaked but Taylor didn't even care he just kept going so i went with it, it was weird i then saw Luke coming up on the bed.. Naked! Taylor got off me then Luke came and got on. What the fuck is happening! Me and Luke then did it and made out and soon enough it was a fucking party! With 4 people! After all that shit happened we left, like nothing happened. I walked home alone. And Taylor went with them. I didn't care at this point i was just confused and tired.

A/N
I have 3 weeks of school left!!! Or somethin like that im so happy! And formal is next week! Ahhh wtf its going to fly by and im not going to know what to do! But heres a chapter! And its long ish lolol 🐨