Those moments (Hayes grier)

Human

"Hey, im gonna do it." i say to Nash

"Yay! Shes gonna sing today!" He screams to magcon people. "Im gonna tweet about it. You should to!" he says walking away

"Lets leave it a surprise for now" i say turning the opposite way after hearing him say kay

"Hey" i say standing infront of Matthew

"Hey girly!" he says hugging me "Ive missed you! So much" he says squeezing me then letting go.

"I was in my room, but i missed you too" i say smiling

"You know what i mean" he says playfully smacking my arm

"So what ya doin" i say annoyingly like a little sibling

"About to post on my second vine channel.. Cause im bored." he laughs "wanna be in it?" he asks

"Okay. What are we doing?" i ask

"Yelling"

"Yelling what?"

"Anything you want. Or just scream" he says "but just for like 2 seconds then we can get everyones reaction"

"Kay"

"Come on lets go to the dinning hall" he says walking, and i follow

We scream right beside Hayes and he falls on the floor i was laughing do hard.

"Aw babe are you okay" i say trying not to laugh

"Yes" he says sitting up

"Ill get you, and you friend to!" he says in a evil face, which makes me laugh

"Sure.." Matt says

An hour goes by and now its sound check

"Kacy, Your up next for sound check with Shawn and Jacob" A lady says handing me a mic and walking away before i have the chance to say thank you.

I decided to go on WeHeartIt to pass some time before hand. I was scrolling through and saw a quote that kind of made me rethink my entire life on earth.

'we're just suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide isn't the answer.'

i then put my phone away and put the lyrics to She is love in my head and go over it in my head.

My thoughts: Change the song. Change the song. Change the song. Change the song. Change the song. Do it. Be brave in front of them. Tell them why. Tell them the truth they deserve it!

"Human" i whisper to myself which confesses Jacob who is standing next to me. "What?" he says

"Nothing, um ill be back" i say dropping my mic on the floor and running. Now crying. Where am i going? Kacy! What the hell! Thats a balcony! KACY STOP!!!!! "STOP!" i scream "Ahhhh" i scream at the top of my lungs out of breath

"I know how you feel" Someone says next to me "Ava?" i whisper looking confused.

Ava is/was one of my bestfriends. She committed suicide at 13, September 20th 2013. At 12:00am i got a call from her mom. Saying she passed away. I had no clue what she was talking about but i was bawling screaming. Chocking on every breath i breathed. My mom rushed in asked me what was wrong she took my phone and started talking to Ava's mom and also cried. After an hour of crying on my bedroom floor i decided to take a walk. I didn't take my phone, nor did i tell me mom, i left our front door open up the b

glass part closed. I walked 4 blocks and then walked 4 blocks back. That night i thought a lot. That night i wanted to jump off a fucking bridge, that night i saw something. Ava i saw her or at least thought i saw her. She was standing in front of a man. He had a gun pointed at her. "Do it! Ive been waiting to do it my self!" she was yelling begging him.