everything about her | d. diggs (on hold)

Chapter 8

DISCLAIMER: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS THEMES OF SUICIDE AND RAPE. DON'T READ IF YOU ARE TRIGGERED OR SENSITIVE TO IT.

Ember
I still couldn't process that Daveed loved me back, it felt like a dream. It wasn't a dream, this was real life. I was starting to daydream, but my phone had received a text.

Natalie
Ember, I'm in Washington.

Ember
Just to be sure, the state, right?

Natalie
Yeah.

Ember
Oh are you visiting family or something?

Natalie
No, I moved there. For my job.

Natalie was a gymnast, so I guess I understood.

Ember
Well, you couldn't have told me before you left to say goodbye?

Natalie
I didn't want to see you hurt.

Ember
It hurts more now! Wtf, Natalie, you are the only friend I have. You helped me through everything. You taught me how to deal with certain things. You were the one person I could vent to. I was there for your first boyfriend! I was there when you were cutting! You stopped me before I commited suicide!! I helped you through so much, and you just leave without saying goodbye?!

*flashback*
I was on top of a 47 story building looking down upon the city of Dallas, Texas. I just didn't want to feel anything. I wanted all the pain to go away. I wanted everything to stop, I wanted time to stop. I wanted to leave this place. I didn't want to live. I wanted to die. Everything is just getting too much for memto handle. It'd probably be better with me gone, right? One less mouth to feed. One less body to clothe.

I was running for my life near the edge, when Natalie barged through the door.

"EMBER!! STOP IT!!"

I didn't stop.

Running after me, she grabbed me and sat me down, while still holding me.

"Please, let me go. I want to die, I want to jump off, I don't want to live." I muttered while crying.

"Be quiet, just stay here and don't talk. " I noticed she was also crying.

* end of flashback *

Natalie
I'm sorry, we're still friends, right?

Ember
Well, friends would say goodbye to friends before leaving.

I was probably being petty and over dramatic. But, she knows how important she is to me, and I know how important I am to her. I stopped her from cutting, I helped her through her breakup. We have both done so much for each other. We had such a strong and unbreakable bond. But, she just leaves. I was feeling a mixture of sadness and anger. I wanted to cry, but I've pretty much lost the ability to cry because of trauma. So, I just started punching my punching bag, until I got all of it out.

Daveed
I woke up smiling, knowing that the most beautiful girl in the world, loves me. I still felt bad for what I did to her. She's such a forgiving person. I want to spend every day with her.

Daveed
Hey, darling, you wanna go somewhere today?

I didn't know where I was going to take her, but I'll figure it out.

Ember
One, I like that name :), and two, I know just the place.

Daveed
Do I need to dress fancy?