I feel a pang in my heart as my message shows up as read.
I don't know what happened.
He won't answer my texts and when I try to talk to him he just nods or turns away.
Even at school he's stopped kicking my seat every time he thought of me, and he stopped staring at me like I was a star.
Actually he won't even look at me at all anymore.
It hurts.
It hurts when the one person you love can't even look you in the eye.
"So how's you and Ryyyan?" My brother cooes at me.
Not a good time to mention him,Jonathan.
I ignore my brother and continue to stare off thinking of why Ryan left me.
"Come on don't you talk to Ryan anymore?'' Jonathan drags out.
Something in me snaps and I stand up.
"No, I don't talk to him anymore because he dumped me. He left me,Jonathan. He fucking left me because he doesn't fucking love me!" I scream as tears fill my eyes.
His face contorts in confusion.
My body shakes in anger and frustration.
" I- I gave him all I could and I reminded him everyday I loved him and he'd blow me off like he didn't care if I loved him or not! I don't understand why I'm so fucking un-lovable! He doesn't love me! He never did,Jon! He used me, okay?"
"I don't know why..." I whisper,my angry tears turn into sad ones.
"I thought he was the one...I loved him. I love him. And god it fucking hurts,man." I chuckle wiping away my tear.
"It hurts giving someone all your love and trust and they can't return any of it." I croak out, my voice turning hoarse.
"I'm...I'm sorry.." he whispers,his own eyes glossing over.
"I know." I bite my lip.
"I just wish he was." I mumble.
