forget me (e.dolan) [discontinued]

five

again, pay attention to the dates*** <3

february 1, 2014

today, peyton and wyatt broke up after 2 months of dating. i feel heartless for saying this, but at first there was a part of me that was relieved. then i saw her and i saw how upset she was, and that went away because it made me really upset too.

when i went to peyton's house, she was in sweatpants and a hoodie, her fuzzy red blanket was wrapped around her shoulders and she had watery eyes. i didn't know she liked him so much, but i put my own feelings aside because they weren't what mattered and i hugged her really tight.

peyton said he dumped her because he likes emily nguyen who most guys think is the hottest girl in school, but that he still thought she was a "nice girl". i've never seen peyton cry before, but i guess wyatt saying that to her really hit her hard.

"e, be honest with me. do you think that i'm pretty?" peyton asked. she sounded so genuine and so hurt. then she said, "i don't want you to lie to me because you don't want to hurt my feelings. i just want to know." i don't think i'll ever forget those words because they really made my chest ache. i couldn't believe what peyton was saying.

i didn't mean to, but before i could really think i pulled peyton into my body until she was kind of on my lap on the couch. i wrapped my arms around her and ignored the way it made my body feel warm and peaceful and i said "hey, look at me." and usually when i say complimentary things to peyton i blush because she knows i like her and it makes me nervous but this time i was more confident than ever when i said, "honestly? i've known you for like a year peyton, and you're still the most beautiful girl i've ever seen." and i really meant that. i think pey knew it too, because she hugged me so tightly and whispered thank you and we spent the next ten minutes hugging on the couch like that in a comfortable silence.

then i said quietly, "i hope one day you'll see yourself the way i see you."

** if you read the last chapter of breathe me, you'll notice that some of the things e says to peyton are a little familiar ;)