number eighty five

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zac asked for a break today..

it means we're still together.. right?

i held onto hayley's hoodie and she ran her hands through my curls. lynn was across from us playing with her phone.

thing is hayley and lynn were on a date tonight but.. i had a breakdown when i finished talking to zac and when i called hayley they rushed over.

i couldn't tell if lynn was annoyed. maybe she is .. she's a good person for hayley. i like lynn, she makes hayley happy. even if hayley spends more time with her than she does with me nowadays.. i don't mind. hayley deserves being happy.. lynn would look at us and give us a smile or a small chuckle or look at me as if she felt sorry for me.

i feel sorry for me too.

i sigh quietly as hayley rubs my shoulders and tries to stop me from shaking. i probably look like a shitting dog.

god why does it hurt me so much?

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