5•19•2016
" What are your feelings for me?"
From the beginning I liked you
I wanted to get to know you
help you-
even if it meant I'd be helping you get with another girl.
,because all I did was sacrifice any chance I could to have you notice me.
I wanted to be first but I was doomed for second-
and I actually came in third...
I sat by not intervening because your eyes were only set one one thing.
It wasn't me
So I hated you for it.
, even worse-
I hate myself more.
Now I see your face and these bad memories come back...
It's inevitable- trust
but all the good memories I have with you will outshine them all one day.
Being the slightest bit friendly with any other girl gets me upset because I don't want those rancid feelings of watching you with someone else come back.... especially when I have you now!
No one truly understands that and just say I'm in a mood...or whatever.
Even when we fight over the dumbest of things you leave: I leave but you're still in my heart and mind, I still want to be by your side. But you didn't do the same, so it had felt like I love you too much and you didn't love me at all.
You didn't seem willing to fight for me, my love, or us with actions not words.
While here I was doing that since the beginning...
I could say so much more but it'd just repeat and go back to the negative side.
Just know I loved you when you didn't even realize and I still do, I just hate the mistreatment, and dumb past that I tried to help you prevent.
I deserve more... not less...
But even if I don't get that I'll still love you.
I should just hate you, but I can't-
That's what I feel towards you.
"Love"
YOU ARE READING
Hugs & Kisses
PoetryLife is as magical as it can be for me, until I met "HIM" He had jumbled my thoughts, priorities, and self worth. He had made me feel so small in this world, when I wasn't. We all have met someone like him... And I hope those who have not, never do...
