6•10•2016
No one loves me.
No one goes out of their way to see if I'm okay, not until I make it undeniably clear that I'm not okay and need help.
I am alone in a world that requires helping hands left and right, whether wanted or not.
Even when "surrounded" win those that love me I feel alone.
I doubt
My mind jumps to another area that will trick my thoughts into a delusion of negativity.
I speak the truth when I admit to wanting more attention.
How long will it take for people to notice someone's not okay?
When it's too late.
Imprisoned by venomous thoughts and made up scenarios that won't be free from me.
Not until the last tear drops,
Not until the last word escapes your mouth,
Not until I have been proven all my uncertain thoughts were wrong.
I just want to hold you and have all the negativity disappear...
But I can't even see you
Not when I want to,
Not when I need to,
What do I do!?
I need you...
One should never have to rely on someone, but I do...
If his presence can make me happy then it does.
My transition from independence to being with someone is tough.
Your happiness shouldn't be reliant on them,
Your life shouldn't be reliant on them,
You should be able to stand on your own and they are what you would say an addition.
But, when you become so consumed and indulged with someone the withdrawal has a high impact on both partners.
It seems as if without them you aren't complete.
Their happiness becomes the reason for your happiness.
The mere presence of them makes you feel less lonely.
Simply hearing their voice (call or in person) can melt away any stress, anxiety, and more.
I need that...
But I can't see you...
YOU ARE READING
Hugs & Kisses
PoetryLife is as magical as it can be for me, until I met "HIM" He had jumbled my thoughts, priorities, and self worth. He had made me feel so small in this world, when I wasn't. We all have met someone like him... And I hope those who have not, never do...
