A Change of Heart

6.

"Violet! WAKE UP!" I open my eyes and there is someone shaking my shoulders. Stanley stands over me and is shaking my shoulders. My face is completely wet. I can't stop crying and my head can't stop buzzing with memories. I can still feel the rush of anxiety running through my body as we admitted Carol into the hospital to the impact the car made when it ran into my car.

"Thank goodness you're awake! You were screaming Carol in your sleep!" Mom is once again holding onto my hand and Dad is just right behind her.

"I remember everything." I say quietly as Stanley strokes my head. "Where's Carol?" Everyone falls silent.

"Carol is currently in the hospital getting treated for carbon monoxide poisoning. Her heart is very damaged. She left you a note before she attempted suicide..." Dad breaks the silence after an awful couple of seconds. He hands me the piece of paper I keep all my passwords on. I take the paper and start reading it.

Hey Violet, I guess if you're reading this... I probably did something stupid... but then again, when do I not do stupid things haha... Just like how I didn't listen to my parents and quit life science and now this has pushed me to the point of no return... I can't pay my tuition no matter what I do, I'm failing my courses no matter how hard I work... I just don't know what to do anymore and this was my only answer... I'm tired Vi. I don't want to worry about anything anymore and pretend to be the perfect daughter for my family. I feel like I don't fit in, and don't think I ever will. It's like this world is out to get me and I'm better off gone. Don't get me wrong though! I am so grateful to have you in my life! I really am! You're like my sister from another mother and your whole family is basically my family too. I am so so so sorry for putting your whole family through this. I love you guys so so so much and I am very sorry for being selfish and having to place this traumatic memory with you guys. Just know that this was the only solution I could come up with. I also don't want to indebt you anymore than I have already, so look into your bank account. The money I owed you for the condo should be there, plus what little left I have for taking care of me as a sister. I will look after you and your family wherever I go and will always keep you and all the memories we made in my heart. I love you and I always will... my heart will always belong to you...

- Carol <3

My eyes blur as I reread it over and over it again. I kept on rereading I love you and I always will...my heart will always belong to you... And that is the last thing I saw as everything turns black once again.