withered || jikook [discontinued]

prologue.

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"J-Jungkook! Please! Don't break up with me!" I grabbed his wrist tightly as I pleaded, my voice desperate. I was practically begging for him to not leave me, to rethink everything again.

As my grip tightened, I didn't care how pathetic I look. I didn't care how desperate I was. I only cared about being with him. I couldn't live without him. He was my sunshine, my world, my everything.

So why? Why does it have to be like this?

"Hyung... Please understand that... Our relationship... I-It's not a stable relationship where it's constantly filled with bickers and arguments. You know that, hyung. You know that! And as much as I love you, it's just not right! I-no, we can't keep on doing this! We're just hurting ourselves! And I can't bare keeping you hurt like this! You deserve someone better, Jimin! So please, just... let's just part ways and end this! No matter how much we tried to rebuild it, a house of cards will always collapse after a short moment!"

I winced upon hearing him. Not because he raised his voice at me, not because he called me by name, but because I knew that... it's the truth...

My grip on his wrist loosened as I fell to the floor, sobs drowning my begs and pleads for him to stay. I didn't want to let go but he was right. This is wrong. We can't keep doing this but I just... I just wish things didn't turn out this way... That there's a solution to this problem.

I felt him gently pull his arm away, freeing himself from my grip before kneeling down in front of me and engulfing me in his strong arms. I wanted to return the embrace but my body felt too weak to do anything.

His nose was buried in my head, his heavy breathing shaking at the slightest as if he made up his mind to do this.

"I'm sorry, hyung. I love you, I really do, but I'm doing this because it's the best for us. I'm doing this because I love you so much that I don't want to see you suffer," he whispered, tightening his embrace. He took a deep breath before letting me go and smiling painfully,

"I love you, Park Jimin. But please, forget about me. Let's just be strangers after this, alright?"

His words caught me by shock as I stared at him wide eyed with disbelief. And before I could say a word, he had gotten up and grabbed his luggage, before walking towards the door.

"Goodbye, hyung. Take care of yourself, okay?"

And with those final words, he exited our shared apartment.

The door closed and I was still trying to apprehend what he just said. And when I did, oh, how I lost my mind.

I cried so loudly, screamed even, whilst calling his name over and over again and begging him to come back to me, to come back to my arms. I kept imagining that he would come back and tell me that everything will be fine and that he won't leave my side but...

He didn't.

He didn't come back.

He didn't come back to me.

And at that moment, I knew that it was over. That there is no way our relationship could be mend again, there is no way that we could even be friends again.

It was that moment when I realized that... I didn't just lose my lover...

But I lost everything,

My best friend,

My sunshine,

My world,

My precious Kookie.

"In the end, we couldn't make it"

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