"I'm Sorry"

The End

Xavier's POV

"Hey did you hear? She's gone."

"I'm so sorry man."

"You really fucked up this time."

"This is all your fault asshole."

"I can't believe you, I gave you a goddamn chance to fix this!"

I'm so confused. Everyone is saying things about you that I don't understand.

[Flashback To This Morning]

I had just walked through the front doors, I immediately noticed the whispers that went around. Some people truly distraught. What is going on?

"Do you think it's true?"

"Impossible, right? The beta's daughter? It's a probably just hoax to scare us, I mean come on." They're talking about you? You? What about you?

I immediately head straight for my locker, where I know I can see your brother. When he didn't ride with me this morning, I didn't question it. It wasn't like he didn't have his own car, because he did. Sometimes he just wanted to be alone and I respect that. I didn't think any different of it today.

Oh but how wrong I was about that.

Standing at my locker wasn't just Malcolm, Landon stood there right beside him. Your brother was clearly distraught about something and Landon was trying to talk to him. But it seemed like he wasn't listening. We made eye contact from across the hall. It was like it sparked a fire in him. He came right up to me and punched me in the face.

"What the fuck, man?" I held my now tender nose. Malcolm was just full on heavy breathing, not saying a word. I look over at Landon and he is blatantly pissed, he flashes his teeth at me as he lets out a growl.

"Are either of you going to say something? Or are we going to keep standing here?" Malcolm can't even bare to look at me, as Landon takes a few steps closer. He stands just a few inches above me, and just as he is about to make a move Malcolm stops him and shakes his head. As if to say, "it's not worth it."

Landon huffs and storms off, not before leaving me a clear message, "This is all your fault asshole. You're lucky he's here to hold me back, or this would mean war." I roll my eyes, 'yeah you and what army?'

Ryker scoffs at me, "You should know he has a whole army at his disposal, though I'm not sure if you will if there was a war." What are you talking about?

This time he rolls his eyes at me, "You think the pack would support you in this kind of fight? Then you must be a fool." I don't understand, what do you mean?

"You shall truly see what you have bestowed upon us." He retreats back into the depths of my mind, not giving me a clear response.

"Ahem." I'm reminded of your brother still standing in front of me, "I'm not going to apologize for what I did. You deserve it and so much more. But I know when the news reaches you, you'll get what you deserve." He stalks off before I can respond.

What's all the mysterious threats about?

[End of Flashback]

There was an announcement today in homeroom, it was for you. Or rather about you.

"Hello students, this is your principal. I am sad to inform you that one of your fellow classmates had passed away late yesterday evening. Ms. Anderson will be missed. The guidance office will be open to all who need to talk. The Andersons' family will be in our prayers. May Lexi Anderson rest in peace. We will now have a moment of silence."

I didn't want to believe it. How could this be? Is it true? Did I do this to you? Did the pain I put you through, do this? I thought you were alright. Or were those fake smiles you put on?

Every time I would walk past you, I caught your eyes. My heart would clench, but I didn't think that pain would lead to your demise.

How could I have been so cruel?

To not even give us a chance, to not even think that we could have been something real. For all of that I am sorry. I know sorry will never be enough. I know sorry won't bring you back, but I hope you're somewhere happier. I'm sorry.

God everyone around me was right. Ryker was more than right, no one would stand beside me when they know how you came to your fate. I deserve this. All the pain, it's not like it will ever compare to what you have gone through. I just hope that one day it'll amount to even an ounce of what you felt. I can't imagine how much this hurts your family. All because of my selfishness. I'm sorry.

I'll always be sorry.

If only I had given the thought of us a chance.

Lexi's POV

"What happened to you?"

"What's wrong?"

"Talk to us, please."

"We love you."

For the longest time now I have hidden myself away from family, a friend, and from you. I just can't take it anymore.

I'm sorry.

I know at this point, I'm a burden. I'm a waste of space. I'll take the initiative and get rid of the problem. Save everyone else the trouble.

I understand that I was loved by everyone and I loved them, but what's the point in having this love when you can't feel it? When you can't feel anything anymore because it all just feels like a numbing pain.

I knew from the start I loved you. Even as time passed, I still loved you. I think that's what kept me alive for long. First there was hope. It was crushed as fast as it came. It was an endless cycle, but as the amount of hope diminished the pain just kept building.

Now all I can say is, I'm sorry I wasn't enough. I'm sorry for not being everything you wanted. I'm sorry for not filling your standards. I'm sorry for being a disappointment. I'm sorry for not doing anything. I'm sorry for just watching from the sidelines. I'm sorry for being weak. I'm sorry that this is as far as I can go. I'm sorry that this is as much as I can endure. I'm sorry I could not stay any longer. I'm sorry I'm a quitter.

I hope at the very least that you're happier without me. I hope you're happier to finally be free of me. I hope all the best for you.

I am sorry.