DMBI - Fragments of a Summin

Chapter Twenty One

Bright lights. He can't open his eyes. He hears a beeping. Feels scratchy material. There's a hand holding his, tears falling on his forearm. Still in this limbo. 

"So... How likely is it?... That it'll work?..." Jimin's voice. He's finally here. It's comforting. But also Yoongi remembers everything. Jimin doesn't care about him.

"Maybe 65%?..." A stranger's voice. 

"That's pretty good..." Jimin's voice again. But it can't be Jimin, Jimin doesn't care. He feels a thumb stroking circles into the back of his hand. Jimin used to do that.

"But that's not the main issue." Namjoon. He sounds angry. "There's also a 50% chance you won't make it." 

That doesn't sound good. That sounds like he's talking to Jimin.

"So?. I told you, I'll do anything to get Yoongi back..." 

"You don't fucking deserve him." Namjoon spits.

That's new... Since when? It's Yoongi who doesn't deserve Jimin. 

"I know... I don't mean back to me, I mean alive again..."

"He's still alive, he's just in a coma... Stop being overdramatic, you two.." Tae. How ironic he's the one saying not to be overdramatic. 

Did Jimin think he'd died? Was that why he hadn't visited him this month? No. Jimin didn't visit because Jimin didn't care. 

"Don't worry. I'm not stupid. I know I don't deserve him. But I still want to help..." Jimin again. He sniffs. Yoongi wants to wipe the tears away. He wants to hold the younger in his arms and stop him from crying.

"Even if he never wants to talk to you again?." Namjoon. Yoongi decides that Namjoon should be quiet now. He has no way of telling the warlock this, though.

"Even if I die in doing it. I don't care. I just... Fuck, I hate myself for what I did... What I said..." He sniffs again. Is that true? Jimin didn't mean those things? Does that mean Jimin would want Yoongi back? 

"You have to realise... If he sacrificed himself, he might not want to come back... He might want to stay unconscious..." The stranger again.

"I have to try." Yoongi doesn't like seeing this side of Jimin. He wants the happy giggling little Chiminie back. This Jimin sounds sad, serious. 

"I hope he hates you." Namjoon again. Yoongi really wants Namjoon to stop, Jimin clearly feels bad enough.

"I hope so too. I'm not good for him and it's easier to stay away if he wants me to... It's even easier for me to die... I hope that happens..." Jimin sniffs again. 

"Don't say that, Jimin. Yoongi would never hate you, no matter what." Yoongi silently thanks Tae for being the only sound of reason.

"Then he's an idiot." Namjoon again. Namjoon can shut the fuck up.

"Maybe. But he's hurt Jimin before.. a lot... Jimin forgave him every time without a second to spare. Now they're just even, I guess..." Tae has a good point...

"He killed him, Tae!" 

"I mean, he didn't. Yoongi killed himself. He gave himself up. Jimin forcing his energy into him is the only reason Yoongi didn't die. So, maybe being thankful wouldn't go a miss?." Tae snaps.

"Don't try your luck." Namjoon spits.

Jimin did what? Was forcing energy in even possible? Could that work? Yoongi hadn't thought so... Jimin intertwines his fingers with Yoongi's. Yoongi feels a needle being stuck into the hand. Then another. And another. Three needles sticking out if the back of his hand.