North Park Girl (Stan Marsh x Reader)

Awake but gone?~Chapter 18

"She fears the unknown more then the known."

Y/n's POV

"M-Mom!" I stumbled over my words as my other hand traveled to hers. "Mom please respond." I breathed out, her eyelashes snapped open in a speed unknown to even me, she has never been that fast before. "Y/n, get away." I cocked my head to the side but she ignored it. "You must go, now. Go to a friends house." My hand dropped to my side as I sat there, she wants me to leave her? "L-Leave you! Never!" I almost screeched out. Her other hand went to my mouth and covered it with all her strength. "Listen, the doctors can't know I'm awake or they'll contact your father." My eyes snapped open even more if possible. Why dad?

"You need to go, you'll know everything soon. You'll learn I promise you, continue doing good in school and don't ever let people boss you around." Her eyes started to water immensely, "Mom, please don't cry. It's as if we will never see each other." She rubbed my cheek softly and shook her head. "We will always see eachother my dear. I'm always here for you. Not physically but Mentally." My eyes widened as I got what she was meaning. "Mom!" I screamed out. "You can't suggest that your gonna die! You can't fucking die on me!" I cursed loudly, footsteps were quickening to get to the room after my out burst, her eyes showed fear and worry. "Listen to me, It's leaving for a long time. You have to do this for me Y/n. If I disappear from this earth, my dear I'm sorry." After those words the door swung open and in came multiple doctors. They were wearing white but I couldn't bring myself to look at them, my head rung so badly it felt as if it would explode.

A nurse grabbed me as more nurses came rushing in and crowding her. I tried to catch a final glimpse of her but I couldn't from the crowd. "Let me go!" I screamed at the lady holding me, upon yelling that out the guys came into the room staring at me wide eyed. Stan, Kyle, Kenny and even Cartman were in there looking at me with sad eyes. Shockingly Cartmans even held a tad bit of sympathy. "Y/n. . " Kyle began but I couldn't bear to hear their I'm so sorry's or their It'll get better. I pushed the nurses off my arm and with one last look at my mother being asked a few normal questions I walked straight past the guys and rushed down the hall of the massive hospital.

The rooms had all sorts of different numbers on them; names posted right beside them on a board. I raced down the stairs and once I hit floor level I broke out in a run out the hospital door. I took a sharp right hand turn and continued to run down that way. I knew North Park very well so I didn't need a gps or pretty much anything to tell me where I'm going. I'm going to the spot I always go to, one of the places I felt safe; I had to safe places. One of them is gone, so that's my final safe away.

The spot was deep in the woods, it was light enough to where I could see where I was going. The spot was hidden beneath shade of leaves, the tree had an engraved area just enough for me to fit. If anything I could always hide there, it was safe. Cozy and possible. I squeezed myself into the small space once arriving and just broke down crying, my tears escaping down my cheeks in a frenzy.

"Y/n!" My name was called out, I shrunk against the tree if possible and hugged my knees tightly. Leaves were crushed underneath someone's foot and from the voice it was Stan's for sure. "Y/n please respond!" His voice called out again in a frantic as if something terrible has happened and it sorta did. I had run away in a frantic without a word, now I just am beside this tree.

My mom's leaving me alone in this world, My dad's still a drunk. How will I get by in life? My mom was one person who worked really, dad won't be able to get a job. I know that for sure. A cry escaped my lips followed by footsteps becoming louder. The footsteps ceased when they were in front of me. Stan stood there his eyes laced with worry and his breathing quickened. "Y/n," No one normal would have been able to find this place, I found it when I was a kid one time when I got lost in the woods by myself. I huddled against this tree in fear but once I heard my parents voice calling for me I jumped up and chased after their voices. After that it had always been a secret and special spot for me. I looked up at Stan, his eyes showed but not all the way. He didn't want to tell me something and that was evident in his eyes. Stan bent down and without thinking I wrapped my arms around his neck.

My sobs were soon muffled by his jacket where I had shoved my face in. "Sh, It's okay." Stan whispered as he tried to sooth me. My cries broke up in section as I lost my breath. Stan rubbed circles on my back not saying a word. My heart jumped softly at this but I shook it off as if it was hurting. "Stan, I. She's--" My voice broke apart at this point and Stan sighed softly. "It uhm, already occurred. I need to bring you back to your house." I shook my head violently making Stan stop his proceedings on getting up. "I don't want to go back." I was able to get out without stuttering or anything.

I know I need to go back but not right now, not tonight. My mom will be around every corner, I don't know what she was talking about back at the hospital and now I'll never know. "Stan, can I stay at your house for the night?" I looked up to Stan with my red puffy eyes from crying. His eyes were wide and his cheeks were a bright crimson. He nodded and stood from his spot this time with me following.

"Y/n, I-" Stan's face turned a deathly green as soon as he tried to talk. My eyes widened and I cocked my head to the side in a some what sad moment. Stan turned away from my in a frenzy and shook his head. "N-Nothing!" He screamed loudly out. I just nodded not thinking anything of him. He might not be feeling good especially after I dragged him this far out. "I'm sorry Stan." I muttered out an apology as my heart started to hurt again. "I-It's okay." He was able to get out, I nodded and leaned my head on his shoulder as he guided us back to his car. His face still deathly green. "Listen Y/n. If you ever need to talk I'm here. I promise I won't leave." His words made my heart jump and a small smile come to my lips. "I- Thank you Stan. I'll take you up on that." I smiled as he opened the car door, a small nod from me I jumped in. Everythings gonna be okay. Stan's here for me.