**ems pov**
Id got home and got into bed, i hate jet lag sooooo much. it took a while getting to sleep, i was where i wanted to be. i was happy truly completely happy for the first time in years. but all good things come to an end.
I woke up in a cold sweat or was i awake i herd a voice
"You'll mess it up just like you do like you always do"
"No i wont" i said weekly.
"Yes you will im the voice inside your head i know what goes on up there"
"Fuck of "i screamed "ive had enough you already did this to me in England not in Australia too"
"Well well well someones found a voice"there was a pause" just a shame it couldnt save her"
"Dont you dare say anything about alex" i let out a muffled cry" i know it was my fault if i hadnt called her after i broke up with eden then she wouldnt of got hit by the car" i let out another cry "i know i pissed eden off so he left my house angry just when alex was coming round" i was crying now "i shouldn't be so needy she didn't have to come round she would be alive still if i wasn't such a needy bitch"
"Well that wasnt so hard now you feel guilty" it let out a wicked laugh "you should feel guilty its your conscience i didnt even say anything about her it was all you"
Then the voice left before that i had been dreaming of that night the night i lost the love of my life and my best friend in the world, then the voice the voice made it worse i could handle it England because i knew i was leaving but what now. i had no friends and it was only me untill mom came great. this was ment to be my getaway its my favourite place. it made me happy it was just me that made it unhappy. so for the guilt i got out my blade i got i cut untill my arms we are just lines of blood.
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Bit depressing but more info
