**ems pov**
As i continued to press the cold metal to my skin i couldn't help to hum a familiar song
"One cut, two cuts, three cuts four, how many more till' i hit the floor"
The song kept repeating itself both in my head and out loud.i felt lost. lost in the way the red liquid was dripping down from my wrists, how it felt like i was drained but still i cut. with every but of admiration i had for alex. to let her know she was still with me. although not physically but mentally. i dug deeper every time i let a tear escape my eyes, i soon changed blades this one becoming to wet to hold and selected a new fresh one to scrape over the scars.
I knew what i was doing was wrong to myself but u had to out of shame, for killing someone. although that was never my intentions, but still it was me. when ever i think of her i wander if i could ever be friends with anyone like i was with her again. Yes i did have a lot of friends in the UK and i guess you could say i was popular and that i was one of the girls in 'the clique' but know one meant as much to me as her. I know it sounds like i was in love with her but i loved her like she was my own sister, everyone knew that. for gods sake i couldn't ever be friends with someone like that could i, look what happened last time. As i remembered all the happy memories came back, all the summers we spent together since we we're two. every winter playing in the snow together. she was my sister. so thats why i had to do this. i cut deeper and deeper exploring all parts of my body to do this on.
I woke up in a haze the next day. aching from the pain from last night. i looked round at the pools of dried up blood and the glistening of metal in them.
I cleaned up my "mess" and decided to get out.
I was unsure about my next decision but i went for it, i pressed Dial and awaited the answer. the familiar ringing sounds coming out of the speakers.
"Hello" an un certain voice said.
"Uh hi ashley, its um emily i wandered if you maybe wanted to go shopping today and maybe pick out an outfit for tonight, you know for Ashton's party. but its fine if you don't want to. i guess i can go alone-"
I was cut if by ashley
"Well of corse i want to come. your my favourite english person ever, well maybe apart from the 1D lads but sure id love to come"
We agreed to meet up at the mall at 12 so we had enough time for us both to get something to wear and maybe get something to eat. i liked ashley, she reminded me of my friends in England, i didn't know yet if this was a good thing but i did like her. I feel like i know her from somewhere but i don't know ....
A/N
filler i know but her and ashley. maybe they do already know eachother. please could you vote comment share and everything
