Worth It. (Sam Wilkinson)

16. #Jasey or #Sasey

48k reads?!!?!!? You guys are the best!! Last time I updated I only had 8k !!

P.S: so I found out that Sam's brother's name is Ben in real life. Initially in this story I named Sam's father "Ben". I switched his fathers name to Will now because yaknow it's less awkward.

(Be aware of some mistakes I tried to type this as fast as possible bc I was determined to update today!!)

I quickly notice that he seems to be coming closer and closer. The air between us becoming much hotter and the space between us closing up. Is this really going to happen right now. Aw shiez. His hazel eyes never leave mine, there's something behind them as if he's asking for something. Sam answers my thoughts when I hear the words "let me give you a proper first kiss" fall from his lips. Before I even have a say, he places his lips on mine.

My lips are reluctant to reply to his motions. Sam begins deepening the miss and a whiff if confidence suddenly urges through me. Sam brings his hand to my side as I place one of my hands to the back of his neck right by where his hair ends. I can feel his body gradually moving downwards and my back coming closer to the mattress. In a matter of seconds my body is completely parallel to my bed and Sam is hovering above me, between my legs.

What am I doing. I don't do this.

With one elbow, Sam's supporting himself so he doesn't fully crush my body. He grips my waist closer to him as I wrap my arms around his neck. Sam starts smiling out of nowhere which makes me smile as well, disconnecting our lips. As the seconds pass I'm missing his lips back on mine where they once were. I open my eyes, they're met with his hazel colored ones and a smile is still evident on his face. He rests his forehead onto mine while I wrap my arms around his neck.

In the fanfics the girls would describe their first kiss like;I just wanted more; heat spread through my body; butterflies fluttered all around my tummy; as soon as our lips connected, I felt sparks." blah blah blah the whole cliché language description that consists in most stories.

(A/N: I'm not bashing on anyone specifically this is just a joke, I do it too lol)

This is totally different. I know I keep saying that everything is different with Sam. Different this. Different that. It's just that I don't know what to feel right now. I still have my guard up, I mean it was never down but you get what I'm saying. not sure if i like him yet tho maybe a lil.

I know that don't have the right words to thoroughly delineate this whole concept. My first kiss. So I'm just going to keep my response as simple as possible and say it was good? to say the least.

"What are you thinking about?" He raises an eyebrow at me while he licks his bottom lip.

"Nothing." I reply simply while fumbling with the ends of my hair.

"You're lying."

How would he know. "Uh, I don't know. This whole thing is so foreign to me. And I feel weird because you've had WAY more experience than me." emphasis on 'way' to get my point across.

He just looks at me and smirks.

"What's so funny ?" I ask while rummaging my hands through his hair.

Sam raises his eyebrow and chuckles before answering. "You can't kiss like that and tell me you haven't kissed anyone before in your entire life."

I can already feel the blush crawling all over my skin when those words fell from his lips. "I haven't!" I laugh.

"Good." He says as he rests his head in the crook of my neck.

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Sam left about an hour ago. It's currently five-thirty and there's nothing to do. I've finished all my school work, Haiden is probably playing video games, there's nothing to do in this house. If I was back in Cali I could just go to one of my friends' house. I have a few friends here, but we're still not close enough for one of us to come to each other's places uninvited. I decide to FaceTime one of my bestfriends from back home, Eliza. I've known Eliza for only about two years, but I have to say she's the one I'm closest with out of all my friends. Ever since I moved out here, we've been facetiming almost everyday now.