Randomness of a Wattpadian Girl 2

IDK why I am even posting this, most people don't care so ~ I will regret this

So, I got yelled at by my mom for so many things I already know. She is so ridiculous and I want so badly to move out and move away from her. She doesn't even know me, she doesn't believe I will say no if a guy wants to gave sex. Please, give me a break, I would never do such a thing, plus I had never given into pressure and she thinks I will make mistakes like her. Newsflash, I am not like her, have never been like her. I will never raise my kids like she has raised us, she kept us from doing normal things in fear of we were going to get kidnapped. She had to be a chaperone for everything I did as a kid, I wad never away from her. She still gets ticked and says 'you never talk to me I am so stressed out me' well, I wonder why, WE DO ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! I have the most boring life ever, i get to go no were. We don't have the money to do anything, we are pretty much poor due to only getting $140 from my dad a week, and that barely gets us by with non-food products and mind you we get the stuff on sale and cheep, yet it never really lasts. We finally got our food stamps so we can eat, if we didn't get them we would be starving.  I have never been on a plane, my mom is to scared it will crash. I don't get to do anything normal kids get to do, I have never been to a party, I never got to go to prom or homecoming, until wattpad I never had any friends, and the people who I thought were, pfft, they were not. I can only were dressed and heels to church and no other time, it just sucks. My mom is trying to tell me where to go for college, that I can't live in a dorm, I can't go out of state, I can't get a job where I want to! She has kept me from everything and here I am still single and will probs br an old cat lady because I go nowhere to be able to date any guys, because none give me the time of day! I have no opinion and have to lie and agree with everything she says, because if I don't I get called taking sides and name and my phone goes bye bye. She won't let me on any website, she says all social media is bad and so is the internet is a bad place. She never wants me posting pictures online and she tells everyone not to post any pictures of us on anything in fear of people doing bad things. I am like sheltered all my life! She thinks my jokes and stuff are stupid because they don't make sense, when they do, she can't think outside the box and when I do for her, she gets so ticked. She can't even use her phone without asking for help, then she yells and curses at me for helping. I can't leave the house at all, because she thinks I will get kidnapped. I am told to grow up everyday for things that aren't even childish. She keeps telling me we aren't to read fiction books and stuff because we are to be in the real world. She doesn't support me in anything I do, I am on my own. She tells me what to say to other people and I can't have my own voice. I don't agree with her on a lot of things yet she doesn't care, so I lie and agree. I know lying is wrong, but with my mom I have to or I will either get sent to my dad and no way in heck is that happening, or my phone gets taken away. She is never fair and is so snappy at me. It wasn't until two years ago she let me go on the activities at camp meeting all myself and mind you I was 16 and my mother was still trailing me like a guard dog! She makes me feel worthless like I don't even matter. She makes me feel stupid and always calls me out for correcting her when she is wrong yet when it gets vice versa I get punished? She also doesn't like be telling her to hold on or asking questions when she tells me to do something. She never tells me but in a vague way, she moves things around all the time. She says I will never live on my own and will never get a job, she won't even let me start learning to drive and it has almost been a year since I got my permit and I hate people rubbing it in my face how they can drive when my mom banned me until I listen to her when I always listen to her. I can't help if she never says something clearly OR forgets to tell me all together. She blames everything on me and some how it is my fault. If anything goes wrong or missing I had to do it. When she realizes it was her, she never apologizes to me, she has an attitude 24/7. She offends people like no ones business, she doesn't know when to not say something, no wonder people at church doesn't like her! She isn't nice to them and makes them feel stupid and ect! She makes people think she is holier than thou, when she isn't at home. She is horrible and she says she slips up when she curses, haha, give me a break, she does it on purpose, and I know that for a fact. Which is why I hate cursing because my mom does it to me everyday! She yells at me for not doing chores when she won't let me do them! She never lets me help even when I offer to help, she says no and then goes and yells at me for never helping.

I don't want to keep doing this, listening to her yell at me all the time, I just can't deal with it anymore, and I am tried of people not caring and seeing I'm not fine, yet ignoring me. And I am tired of fake people, pretending to be my friend but never seeing how I am, when it is obvious I am not okay. I have never been okay, I only say okay because no one really cares anyways. Only my true friends are the ones I tell how I really feel, they understand and care.

So yeah, that is just 25% of my life, you don't know the 75% I have to deal with. And I don't care if I didn't break it, I don't care anymore, I am done and fed up with everything.