Finally Safe

Chapter 11

She calmed down after about an hour. It seemed like she was clinging to me for dear life. But once she calmed she seemed to realize I was the one holding her. She got off my lap as fast as she could and backed away from me. I remembered that I was mad at her mostly for this sort of thing.

"Why the fuck do you do that, you always back away from me like your scared of me!! And what the hell was that back there as soon as I touched you, you looked like you were actually scared of me!! It looked like you thought I was going to kill you!!" I'm so frustrated and hurt that she was actually scared of me. I didn't think I gave off that message but for some reason she thinks I did.

"Its not-..." she starts, but then she seems to remember she's mad at me. She gives me the same glare as earlier but it doesn't have the same effect, it's actually really hot. "Maybe I did that because I am scared of you!! Your like a fucking creeper, we are always running into each other and you always just show up for some reason!! I told you to stay away from me but no, you just think I'm going to be your fuck buddy!!"

"That's all bullshit Charlotte and you know it!! Why did you act that way, I want the truth!?!?"

"I-I-I can't give you the truth!!" she takes a shaky breath and continues, "All I can say is that it had nothing to do with you. That's all I can promise you. But that doesn't change anything, I'm not nor will ever be going on a date with you. I REFUSE to be anyone's fuck buddy ever!!"

I walk over to her trapping her against the wall. "Firstly, I don't want you to be my fuck buddy. I want to take you on dates, know everything about you, I want to do all that corny shit in the movies." I lean into her ear and whisper, "I want to do all of that, but only with you." She shivers and looks into my eyes.

"Then why would you be out with some girl you hook up with, the same day we were going on a date,"

"You never let me explain Sunshine. I asked her out over a week ago today, but then I met you and I completely forgot about her. She was calling me NONSTOP for almost fifteen minutes straight I couldn't fucking take it. So I thought if I take her out today I never have to see her again. I wasn't going to fuck her."

"It sure looked like it, you were all over each other," she looks away from me.

"Correction Sunshine, she was all over me. I told you the truth about my PAST relationship with her because I didn't want to lie and make things even worse in the future."

She finally looks back at me and I can see that made her happy.

I put my hands on her waist, and say, "As for the date, I think I deserve one with everything you put me through. You've kicked me in the balls, scratched me, punched me, slapped me, and you pepper sprayed me. I think your the first person that has ever won a fight against me," this causes her to laugh, and the sound makes me happy.

"Yeahhh, sorry about that. I'm still not going on a date with you unless you win that game tonight," she has a smirk on her face and I literally want to rip my hair out of my head. This is karma for my dating history I just know it.

"Uggghh fineee you win," I throw my hands up in the air frustrated, and she flinches yet again. She can tell it upset me and she gives me an apologetic smile. What she does next completely shocks me. She comes towards me and wraps her arms around my midsection hugging me. I wrap my arms around her tiny body returning it.

"Why do you do that, I would never hurt you, not like that, are you scared of me," I ask softly, it would kill me if she was scared of me.

"Well if you haven't noticed by now it's guys in general not just you, and I am scared of you," my heart literally stops beating, "but not in the way that you think."

"What do you mean," I want her to tell me more than anything. I proceed to pick her up and sit with her on the bed again.

"I'm scared because I can actually do this stuff with you. I mean like touch you, talk to you, just be close to you in general. I've never been able to do this stuff with men in general without having a panic attack, but for some reason I can with you. That's what scares me, I'll get close with you and lose you somehow. I'm not sure how I would handle it." She says it softly and I hold onto every word she says.

"Jase?"

"Yes, Sunshine?" I reply while rubbing her back.

"I want to try and make this work. Will you promise me that you'll never give up on me? Just be patient with me?" she looks me straight in the eye.

I lean forward and press my lips to her forehead. "Yes, Sunshine. I will NEVER give up on you."

We say nothing for awhile, I just hold her in my arms, drawing circles on her back. She clings to me pressing her head to my chest. She turns her head to look up at me giving me a smile. Her emerald eyes looking brighter. Where have I seen those eyes before.