Never Thought Twice {Liam Payne Fanfic}

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How could I not make it? I'm a miracle woman who has over gone everything doctors expected! I didn't believe him but the way that tears over flowed from his eyes told me he wasn't lying.

"It's gonna be okay.." I said hiccuping from a sudden sob that appeared.

"How- how can you say it's gonna be okay?" he said gasping for air. He was heart broken and the look on his face, left me broken. Just then the babies were brought in. I looked at the peaceful, innocent bodies and I cried even more. How could I do this to them? it wasn't fair to anyone and I felt like the weight of worlds was holding me down putting unbearable things on my heart that can't be lifted. Is this what I get? Is this what I get for never thinking twice about the people that would suffer my consequence for me? How is that fair to them, to my boys? to Liam, my family Eleanor, everyone?

"Hold them, I want to see your face when you hold them for the first time." I said smiling and wiping my eyes. He smiled back and went over and carefully picked up both of them cradling Anthony and Nathan in his arms. Another tear rolled down his checks as he smiled uncontrollably and looked down with so much love in his eyes. There was no doubt in my mind that those kids would grow up with a great dad that loved them so much.

"There perfect Becca." he said, I only nodded. Could this be anymore perfect? no, I thought to myself there are ways that can ruin the moment though. The little guy in my brain is so annoying. I was handed Anthony. We are able to tell the difference because Anthony has hair and Nathan doesn't.

After feeding them and they were fast asleep I put them back in there 'beds' each of them sleeping peacefully. Liam came over to me.

"They wanted to, keep you here until you-" he couldn't finish the sentence as his face was grief stricken over me and I haven't even died yet.

"But?" I knew there was more to it though.

"I convinced the doctor to let you come home. I'd rather you 'sleep' peacefully at home then in a hospital bed." He said kissing me forehead.

"Okay."

Sleep. Multiple meaning word in his sentence. Meaning not getting sleep because of babies or it can mean, sleeping eternally. I don't want it to mean either but the inevitable will happen.

As I had thought the hospital bed was extremely uncomfortable but Liam didn't much better considering he took the couch. When every one including the babies were awake the doctor came in and Liam got the car seats to make sure the babies passed the car seat test. The hospital had to make sure the car seat was suitable or what ever. Yeah, 'cause you know I'm just gonna let little Johnny slide out of his car seat. it was ridiculous, finally above all finals we were able to get out of the hospital In one piece and safely in the car with out children sliding out of there seat. And no, I don't think I'll ever get over that.

"Are you ready?" Liam asked reversing the car.

"For what?" I asked.

"You get to give the grand tour babe." He said smirking, I smiled. It's always been infatuating to me, the idea of introducing an infant to it's home making it familiar with it's surrounding. Supporting it as it grows into everything. It's just always seemed exciting. When we walked into our home, i looked down at the carrier in my arms and thought 

'is this really how it's supposed to be?' 

it was like you could hear a pin drop inside of my body except for the earratic beating of my heart. It's all to dramatic to be true though. who's life is actually like this? this is crazy and way out of the ordinary but it's my life and i guess this is how god planned it for me. Every ones plan is different we can't decipher wether it's fair or not until we've lived it to it's fullest and i haven't done that yet and i intend too.

  Anthony started to squirm so i put down the carrier and took him out carefully as did liam. 

"welcome home boys!" i said softly and started my tour. of course they were asleep for most of it, it felt good to welcome them in. Tomorrow, they'll be up for a bit and we will hang out as a family. how weird, i'm a mother and liam is a father. who would've thought?

 

wow okay so this is one of my last chapters and i really hope every one keeps reading! i want every one too know how appreaciative i am of every single person thats ever voted or commented or read this story in general, i never expected it to have all the reads it does and honestly i still get giddy when i see how many reads i have so yeaah i get annoying but hey, i'm proud of what i've done......anyone now that i'm done ranting about myself please 

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