Never Thought Twice {Liam Payne Fanfic}

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"You know it's a good thing you brought her In." I heard Dr. Fredrick said to Liam.

"Well every things going to be okay right?" he said, I've been half awake half asleep for the past half hour I just didn't want to give any hint I might be able to hear them.

"It most likely will not be, we discussed this, the chances of her living are so slim it's nearly impossible. Of course it's amazing that she made it past giving birth but that by itself is a miracle. Son, I think you need to accept some things." Well that was a bit rude. If I opened my eyes I can only imagine how frustrated Liam looks about now. On the off chance though he was actually considering what the doctor had said I decided to open my eyes,

"Look at you gorgeous." he sighed caressing my cheek.

"I don't know how you find IV tubes and hospitals attractive but hey that's up to you." I stated weakly cracking a smile.

"I'm stuck with you, remember?" he said smirking

"Oh yeah, how torturous this all must be." I said frowning

"Oh shut up, I've dealt with you for a little over a year I can deal with you for ever." He was holding my hand and I appreciated that and sighed

"I heard what that doctor said." We were kind of just staring at each other now.

"Oh yes, that, well I really don't agree with him I think every thing will be okay." He said kissing my knuckles.

"What if it's not though." I struggled to sit up from my uncomfortable position.

"Then I would have to tell you, don't think about it. We need to be right now okay?" his eye brows were raised in a suggestive way. I only nodded. "Let's face time your mom and the boys okay?"

"No! can she bring them here I wanna touch my babies." I said, that had always been a thing mom had told me about. You crave the touch of your children you have an eternal bond no matter what.

He hesitated "alright, uh, I guess, yeah alright I'll call them and have them come down." I nodded. Maybe some sleep before they got here would be good. Yeah, sleep sounds nice right about now.

***

A few hours later I was awoken by Liam and all my family was surrounding me.

"Mom! dad! jordyn! Ja'Nya! Abby!" I said trying to project my excitedness as best as I could. I truly was happy to see them I was just weak. I looked around for my children and they were handed to me gingerly.

"God, I love you all so much!" I said a silent tear streamed down my face. I kissed the tops of Anthony's and Nathan's heads. My mom came around and kissed my head and squeezed me tight. I heard my dad telling Liam how he did good, whatever that's supposed to mean. Having everyone here really put me in a better mood. Jordyn, Abby, and Ja'Nya all chatted with me for a while. All of them gushing how cute Anthony and Nathan are.

"I love you." Was a theme it appeared, I kept saying it, Liam kept saying it, mom and dad kept saying it even my sisters.

It's about 4 a.m now and the babies were asleep in my arms and I needed a break, more like my arms need a break. Almost everyone was either half asleep or had a Starbucks in their hands. Unless you were Liam and he was just sitting there holding right into my hand whispering cute and romantic things.

I had a break down at about five.

"I don't wanna.. die... here!" I was hiccuping and was just having a mental break down. This is too much. I can't hold onto this. Time seemed to go faster.

"Kiss me." I whispered and Liam did it was full of passion and I could tell by just that kiss that he loved me.

"Say that you love me." I just wanted to hear it as much as I could.

"I love you so much, I'd do anything for you. Anything to make it stop." He had his own tears slipping out.

"Can I kiss their heads?" he nodded and brought them over letting me look at their faces and kiss them.

"I love you." I whispered to them.

"Becca is there something your not telling me?" he said. He knew what I wasn't telling him.

"Shut up you said it would be okay and it is right?"

"Right. But what am I gonna do with out you?" he said crawling into the already small bed with me and we held each other. He got out though because the nurses had to come in.

"Liam, can you promise me you will find those boys a mother?" he shook his head.

"No. I can't do that. You're their mom" he was sobbing and I couldn't stand it.

"Liam you have to let go of me!" I was starting to cry as well

"I'm not ready. I'll never be ready." The look on his face was so pain filled and it completely broke me.

"I swear, one day you'll let go and I'll be so proud of you. And I'll watch over you in my sexy angel dress and think, that's my husband." He sob smiled and I breathed in and out ready at any moment to just stop. It seemed really peaceful and inviting at this point.

"Liam, god will help me and you too-"

Liam's P.O.V

"Liam, god will help me and you too-" she just stopped and I looked over and everything was beeping like crazy and I screamed I punched a wall I did everything. But I felt no pain. Nothing would compare to the pain I felt right now ever. Her family rushed over to me and doctors and nurses came in too. I felt bad because the babies had to be removed from the traumatic scene and I broke down even more

"This isn't real. Baby, everything's alright see? it's okay...." she's gone who am I talking to? I kept talking to the non-breathing body they'd given us a moment to say good by but it's been 45 minutes. Her mom came in and I was still mumbling I couldn't hear what she was saying until she screamed In my face.

" She's gone Liam! it's done! please stop dragging this out!" I only stared up at her blankly and she sighed. I shook my head and stood up I kissed Becca on the lips, it just wasn't the same and It won't ever be again but I had to try. I rearranged her hair the way it always was and whispered

"Look at you gorgeous. In your sexy angel dress." I closed my eyes and walked away. I had a job now, the boys were my responsibility and I would be the best damn father ever.

{ so I have to be honest I really don't want this to be over but I couldn't drag it out and that's why it took so long to update, for all of you who are still reading my story. There is going to be two more important chapters so I do encourage you to read all of the following chapters. I've had so much fun with this story and I'm sorry it ends the way it does, I've pulled a john green, I'm sorry.

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