Heart Beat

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Today is party day, the Friday of all Friday's. The day before spring break.

I wake up excited and quickly climb out of bed, making my way to the bathroom and as I step into the shower I welcome the hot water to wash over my body.

I come up with the most great ideas when I'm in the shower, the idea of fucking Mr. Anderson started out here, also the unspoken agreement with Ryan. My latest idea was spending more time with Jayden and we did. For the past couple of weeks Jay and I have spent every break together and gotten to know each other better.

Actually I consider him as my best friend, seeing I don't have many, well.. none. Jenny isn't my friend, she's just my room mate. Ryan isn't my friend, he's just a fuck. Kinda sad now that I think about it. I only interact with two people and that's only because I have to. I left all my old high school friends behind and never looked back once I started college. I didn't want them in my life anymore and still don't, that part of my life is a closed chapter I'm not willing to reread.

So when I met Jay I decided in one of my morning showers that I would be friends with him, no sex involved what so ever and I was proud of myself for sticking to that promise I made with myself. I know how it would've went if I treated him like I treat everyone else. We would've fucked and that would be it, our bodies would have gotten to know each other instead of our minds and with him I didn't want that. Don't get me wrong, the man is fine as fuck, but there was something about him that made me wanna get to know his mind and soul before anything else.

Weirdly he wasn't put off by my reputation. Multiple people, mostly girls, have come up to him to warn him about me or tell them he'll catch something by hanging out with me. I'm thankful he tells me these things instead of going behind my back about it but even more thankful cause he sticks up for me.

So yes, I do consider Jay to be my best friend. I smile to myself thinking about this all as I wash up my hair. When I rinse out the shampoo, small strands of hair pool at the shower drain making me sigh loudly

Deciding to ignore it today, I put conditioner in the ends of my hair and leave it in as I get my loofah, squirting my all time favorite body wash on it. The body shop Japanese cherry blossom bath and shower gel. Taking in the scent I inhale deeply and wash up my body

After that refreshing shower I put a towel around my body and start working my magic with make up. Standing in front of my dresser I lean into the mirror to get a better look and focus on creating the perfect eyeliner wing. A knock on my bedroom door makes me jump a little, causing me to fuck it up. The wing now completely crooked and way to long

'Damn it!' I curse as the person who knocked enters my room

"Hey you ready to g- oh shit, sorry. You didn't tell me not to come in" Jay says, turning around, his back facing me

'What?' I ask confused, trying to fix the eyeliner

"You're in a towel" Jay chuckles

'So? It's not like I'm naked' I laugh a little

"Oh well okay then." Jay shrugs and turns back to me, moving to stand behind me I look at him through my mirror in front of us

"Good morning sunshine" Jay smiles and rests his hand on my waist, leaning down to peck my cheek. My breathing stops at his movement and this unknown feeling stirs in the pit of my tummy, but I quickly regain my composure

'Not a good morning, you fucked up my eyeliner and now I have to start again.' I groan

"How did I fuck it up? You're the one plastering on the make up" Jay teases, giving me a playful smirk, squeezing my waist a little before letting go and making his way to my bed, sitting at the end. Dropping his backpack behind him

'Oh shut up' I chuckle and grab a make up wipe then start wiping the make up off my face

"You know you don't need all of that, you're beautiful just being your natural self" Jay says, I can tell by the tone of his voice that he's being genuine and it warms my heart a little but my mind goes against it instantly.

Stop Alexis, no feelings involved.

The smile he had created by the comment quickly falls

"So, any plans for spring break?" Jay asks

'No I'm just staying here' I reply and start putting on make up again, only this time keeping it natural. Just some mascara and a clear gloss will do.

"Are you kidding me?" Jay says surprised

'I'm dead serious' I swipe on the gloss before putting the make up that I've used back in the drawer and walk past Jayden to my closet to pick out an outfit for today

"You can't just stay here by yourself?" Jay says, watching me move

'Sure can and sure will' I reply taking a loose sweater out of my closet and look it over, contemplating on whether to wear it or not

"Well what about your family back home?" Jay asks and with that question he hits a nerve, luckily I have my back facing him otherwise he would've seen the look on my face and it would've raised more questions, quickly blinking back the tears I clear my throat to speak

'I'm staying' I wanted it to come out confident but it came out weak, I clutch the fabric of the sweater in my hand as I hear Jay get up off the bed, footsteps approaching me, he stops right behind me.

His hands stroking up my arms create an instant spark, goosebumps forming on my arms. He spins me around to face him and pulls me in a hug

"I'm not leaving you here all by yourself" Jay says as I relax into his hold, wrapping my arms around his waist, leaning my head onto his chest I let out a sigh

I'm thankful for him not pushing me to talk, I know he knows there's something up but instead of trying to pry it out of me he respects that I'm not willing to talk about it and lets it be.

"You could come with me?" Jay suggests and I look up at him to see if he's serious. Our eyes meet and that's when I'm sure of the answer to my question. He's serious about his proposal

I open my mouth to speak but Jay's hand reaches up to my face, stroking a strand of wet hair that was sticking to my face behind my ear then rests his hand at the back of my neck. His eyes flickering to my lips and back to my eyes. Every word I wanted to say got caught in my throat and I'm left speechless, only a feeling I can't explain running through my body.

Jay smiles and leans in, expecting him to kiss me I close my eyes. Surprised when I feel him place a sweet kiss on my forehead, he pulls away.

"Think about it. I should get to class. Mine starts before yours." Jay says, going back to my bed to get his backpack

I'm still unable to form a full sentence so I just nod at him

"Bye Alex, see you at lunch" Jay smiles, flinging his backpack over one shoulder and winks at me as he leaves the room leaving me standing stunned in my bedroom

What the fuck just happened?