Kitty Cat! ( black butler fanfic)

Chapter 13 part 2

  After a good half hour of arguing, though mainly on Alois's part, he finally gave up. I heard a sigh from him which made me look at him. "Oh you are done, yes." I said bluntly which caused him to go into another fit. His Butler then decided enough was enough. "Your highness I think it best if we move on." I merely looked at him bored out of my mind.

"Yes do leave, we are at least an hour behind schedule." I said slightly irritated again. I actually took the time to plan today out only for it to be ruined by this horrid child. My servants seemed rather annoyed as well. At last his servants seemed to just dragged him out of my home. Thank goodness for that he was too obsessive.

Then once again the peace was shattered by an other idiot.  "Ally!!!" I can't get a break today. "What is it? Grell, I'm not in the mood for anything right now." I said slowly trying to be patient. Grell then put a hand on top of my head. "Aww is it your time of the month!"

I then promptly snapped. "Arghhh!" I screamed before pointing my gun at him and shooting 3 times. "Ahh! My spleen!" He cried out as he fell to the floor. "F-ing tomato bastard!" He laughed and stood up. "Well that tickled."

Me servants glared at him and started to clean up the blood.  "Stupid reaper..." one muttered as they cleaned up. I sighed. "You really should stop taking your anger out on me." he sang as he twirled around dropping more blood. I heard another chorus of groans. "Yes, well you should really stop being so bloody annoying. Oh wait you can not do such a thing, so I guess I will never be able to stop taking my anger out on you." I retorted with a flaming anger.

He shrugged. "I guess we can not all have what we want." More blood fell as he swished his arms around laughing. It was then that his words hit me. We really can not have what we want. I want my parents back and with me. It stung in all honesty how real those words that came out of his bloody lips were. "No, we can not." I whispered as I turned to go back to my office, my sanctuary.

Grell seemed to catch on to my mood change and followed me. "You should not let the past have that much power over you." he whispered behind me as he shut the door my office. I went to sit in my chair before answering. "I can not help it. I will never forget, and I should hope I never have to." He nodded his red hair blocking his striking green eyes. "Forgetting is not the issue. The issue is living with what has happened and moving foreword." I nodded and looked up at Grell.

"How do you do it?" I asked softly sitting up, trying to look into his eyes. He kneeled down and looked up at me. "By taking life one step at a time and making sure to spend some of it doing or saying something stupid." I giggled softly with him before smiling down at him. "Grell. I do not say this as much as I should but...I love you." His eyes brightened. "I love you too Ally!" We smiled at each other but I knew we did not love each other the same way.

He saw me as his little daughter or sibling. He cared for me in the form of a family member. Which irritated me but I understand. We are not ment to be. I try to rub off these feelings and so I get annoyed with how little he understands of my feelings. I act out because I love him, I truly love him.

 You could say it started after he began to teach me. He was patient with me contrary to what most would believe and though he did get off topic a lot, he was very interesting. Grell was always making me laugh and smile. After a year I knew I loved him and right when I was going to admit such feelings he disappeared. I was bitter but after my parents death I gave up on those feelings.

Now with him in front of me I decided the best thing to do was ignore my feelings again. I leaned down and gave him a hug.

I could feel the tears coming. My throat closing with all my words stuck. I would not say a word, I would not cry, but I did. I cried.

He held me and tried to sooth me. He sang to me but it did not help. Could he not see I was giving up? I clung to him none the less. I guess we really all can not have what we want.

With a kiss on the cheek I stopped and smiled. "I am fine thank you Grell."  We can not all have what we want. After this I will want nothing else.

Good bye Grell.

Good bye old me.

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-Love M