LOVE OR?

Chapter-18

As these weeks passed by , the wedding day was getting closer and closer and so was my nervousness. I started panicking even for small things.

The dress fittings, which went smoothly every time and the venue and the decorations, the flowers, the centre pieces, the first dance and everything. Oh my god! It was a lot to take in and I have to do my job with perfection. Everything has to be just perfect.

Just one last week is left and all the invitations have been sent out and I have been getting the replies with blessings. Unfortunately, my 4th cousin won't be able to make it because of her baby and even my few colleagues. So it went down to 180 people at the end.

I informed the caterer about the situation, and he was happy to be off some burden of 20 people.

2 tables were decreased and the entire seating arrangement had to be changed again.

Uh a lot of work, but I completed it all after from some help from Ben, Stacey and Kyle. Everyone seemed as tensed at me, but was it the wedding or something else. That night was the toughest.

My parents and to be parents flew in 3 days before the wedding. I was back at my old apartment with my parents, and Ben with his parents, and the rest of the family was to be stayed in hotels.

Kyle's and Stacey's family insisted on staying in the apartments with us, and it was a good time all of us staying together. The families and us.

2 DAYS BEFORE THE WEDDING

I haven't had a chance to meet Kyle all alone, just the two of us, but today was the night I can talk to him. It was all the three friends and families get together, just a dinner for all of us. As everyone sat in the lobby enjoying food. I had the opportunity to meet Kyle alone in the bedroom. I took him there, just to talk about everything.
As we entered in the bedroom, he pushed me at the door and started kissing me, such a relief to taste those lips again. "I..i love you Kyra. Have always been. The day you shouted out you loved me in the hospital, I couldn't resist myself. Please don't get married to Ben." He said as some tears flowed down his cheeks and mine too. I had wanted to hear those words since a long time, but now it was all useless. "You know, now it is all useless, I have to marry Ben and I have to forget you anyhow, but I hope you will come to the wedding as my best friend." I said. "I will come anyhow, I will be there when you say I do" he said he cleaned his face and he ran off. I could hear the main door bashing as he walked out the front door. I cleaned my face and fixed my make up and went out.

"What happened? Why did he go?" His family asked me. "He is just sad, I am getting married" I replied.
I just joined everyone in for the dinner.

It could have been a nice dinner, but it is all my fault. I cursed myself with in as I sipped on my wine, faking smile, like I am very happy or the day just couldn't be better.

I could see the same sadness in Stacey's face, may be because I am going away from her.

And then it was time, when all the old albums started coming out. Stacey and I almost naked in Stacey's backyard self inflatable pool (obviously as kids). The those birthday parties, how we dressed up. Those sleepovers, when we put on make up and dressed as housewives.

Then the marriage photos of us, we both used to be brides, secretly borrowing our mom's white scarfs to make them veil and say our marriage vows like to never leave each other ever. Stacey's dad even had recordings of one of those ceremonies.

Then the backyard luncheons, we used to have. Then we grew up and then Kyle came in our lives.
The hangouts of three of us. The prom night photos, where we three went together.

Then the last day of school, when we three were crying for going all separate. I remember how hard I cried, when I was so in love with Kyle.
My parents thought it was just going away, but it was just the one person my heart ached the most.

As the night came to an end, we were all emotional, especially the mom's and grandmothers. Some more wine and some dancing just cheered everyone up.

Stacey stood up and took me in the back "Are you okay? Are you sure about this?" She asked. "I am happy, why would you ask this even?" I asked her back. I am not happy I know but I have to do this . I have to lie to everyone, specially myself. "Nothing, I think I got those wedding jitters" and we both laughed it out. We hugged, and cried again.

We came out and again everyone looking us together, everyone had tears in their eyes. "It just feels like yesterday, you both were playing marriage and now you are getting married" my mom said out loud, and tears dropped down my eyes.

The night finally came to an end, my parents wished good night to everyone and told everyone to be ready for tomorrow's rehearsal dinner.

Just 1 more day and I will be officially MRS. KYRA BENEDICT.