Craving the impossible. | Kim Namjoon FF|

Chapter 34- i won't leave you.

  "Y\N is dying Namjoon." he said with low voice and i felt myself froze at my spot at his words it took only three words to crash my whole world down into million pieces .

"w-what?? what do you mean she is dying?" i said with a low voice and looked at him with pleading eyes hoping that i heard wrong.

"she's not eating, she's not sleeping, she looks so pale and weak. she cannot even stand well and her voice is started to be so faint from how tired she is. i beg you help her Namjoon you are the only one who can help her. i don't want to see the one i love like that." He said pleading me.. he loves her? i thought they are just friends. whatever thats not the problem here.

"where is she?" i asked him with a real sad voice. "in her studio.. come i will drop you off." he offered and i nodded. we went out and hopped in his car. it was silent. we are both falling for the same girl who is now in a miserable state. after not so long we were in front of her studio. i was about to get off of the car but stopped when he didn't move.

"you won't come with me?" i asked him confused. 

"right now.. she only needs you Namjoon. only you. please take care of her. and yea.. thats her favourite food. please make her eat." he smiled weakly at me and handed me a box of chicken wings. i nodded and he started the car and went away. i hesitated and kept looking to the door of her studio feeling nervous then i suddenly noticed that the door is opened. i kept getting closer and closer to the door and i heard someone sobbing loudly. my eyes gone wide and i entered the studio and closed the door after me. 

"N-Namjoon.." she said and looked at me. seeing her like that killed me and crashed me into million pieces. i left the food on the floor and went straight to her and hugged her as tight as i can. i kept whispering calming words in her ear. after a while she stopped crying and took a deep breathe and smiled at me. "thank you." she said and i just smiled at her.

"are you okay now?" i asked her and she nodded and i nodded too. suddenly she kept smelling something in the air and i was confused.

"what are you doing girl." i chuckled at her actions. "is that chicken wings i smell or i am just hungry?" she asked me searching for chicken wings. damn this girl really is in love with chicken wings. i laughed and stood up grabbed the bag of the chicken and handed it to her and her eyes lit up and she smiled so bright and took the bag. i missed that bright smile of her. I kept staring at her while she is eating and admiring her. she suddenly stopped and looked at me while her mouth stuffed with food. "what? you won't eat?" she said with widened eyes and muffled voice due to the food in her mouth making me laugh out loud.

"no i will." i said while laughing and was about to have a chicken wing when she slapped my hand away. "i had my eyes on this one long ago take another one." she said to me and held another wing and shoved it in my mouth. i widened my eyes at her actions and she laughed like a lunatic soon enough i realised what is happening and joined her and laughed out loud. After we finished eating we stayed on the floor deep talking.

"soo.." i started to get her attention and after she looked at me she smiled at me brightly and hummed in response. "you don't wanna say why you disappeared like that suddenly?" i asked her and she sighed in response.

"look i don't know why but i am afraid to be close to you guys. i mean you all became so close to me and i loved you all so much but then i come back and remember that everyone that i love and become so close too always leaves.." she said and looked down. i went to her and sat next to her. I lifted her head up to make her look at me.

"look Y\N i won't leave you. i am serious and i have never been that serious in my life ever and i don't think i will ever be i will never ever leave you no matter what happened." i said to her and her eyes lit up as if she was just waiting to listen to these words from me and then she hugged me so tight. "you really don't know how much 've been waiting to hear these words. they really lightened me up. thanks mr dimples." she looked at me and winked while breaking the hug. i swear i could feel my heart exploding in my chest already.

"what about we go back now princess?" i looked at her and then she spun around and sat on the chair and pulled another chair next to her. "no not now.. what about we just spend the rest of the night doing and enjoying music and go back in the morning?" she said to me while smiling. i couldn't resist so i smiled back at her and nodded and sat on the chair next to her.

"so tell me Namjoon." she started making me looking at her. "aren't you going to ask me about my favourite outfit and what i can do related to music as be surprised at the answer again?" she asked me and laughed making me laugh nervously at being caught. "i don't have amnesia Namjoon i remember how shocked you were every single time i say to you this." she laughed again. I rubbed the back of my neck and laughed nervously again at her. "well you looked so happy talking about these things and your eyes keep glowing everytime you talk about that so i keep asking to see this sparkle." i said looking directly at her admiring her face. she looked at me and smiling and we kept looking for each other for a good amount of minutes till she broke the eye contact off. "okay you got me there." she looked at her computer doing things i didn't notice because i was watching her side profile. she is beautiful.