I'm Not What You Think I Am

Choose Me or Him

Belle was laying in bed with Dan in her arms. It hasn't been long since the attack but she could tell that not a lot of people trusted her. She turned her head slowly over to her sleeping husband. So much stress on his shoulders...Keeping his dad from killing his wife, Setting a good example for his kid and just a bunch of balancing work. Belle looked to see Jesus walking in. 

"Evening Belle," He said walking over and sitting next to her. Belle nodded and smiled. 

"Evening Jesus, Um we need to talk about something," Belle said handing the sleeping baby over to Jesus who carefully held him. 

"What about?" He asked. 

"If something happens to Carl and I, I want you to raise Daniel. I know you would be a great stepfather to him because you always make the right choices. Your also the only person who wouldn't try to kill my baby."She said as she looked at them. Daniel liked Jesus. He liked all of his uncles. Jesus and Ezekiel. But Daniel's favorite aunt and only aunt was Enid.  His grandparents were torn. Well, not his grandma's. They loved him to death. But his grandpa...He was torn. 

Jesus looked down at the baby and he nodded. 

"Any special place you want me to raise him in?" He asked looking at Belle. 

"No, But you'll need to keep him safe. If Negan finds out where the baby is he will take it. If I see Negan I'm gonna say I had a miscarriage."Belle said. Jesus sighed and he looked down at the baby clinging to his jacket. 

"I'll do my best. But for now, let's hope nothing ever happens to any of you." Jesus said giving Dan back to Belle and Carl woke up as soon as Jesus left the room. 

"Hey, baby," Carl said in his low morning voice. 

"Hello, Carl. You slept past noon again."Belle said looking down at him watching as Carl moved to nuzzle her stomach. 

"Shut up, I'm too tired," Carl said softly. 

"I'll make you chance Dan's poopy diaper." Belle teased. 

"Fine, I'll get up," Carl said giving up and he sat up. Belle smiled happily as she won. Carl looked at his wife and he rolled his eye before he leaned over and kissed her softly. He loved his life even if it was a shitty world. All he needed was Daniel and Belle and he was happy. Rick then walked in and the two teens pulled away to look at the man. 

"We need to talk all of us,"Rick said as he shut the door. He looked at his grandson. He loved his grandson but he was scared he would have the same killer inside of him that his mother has. Carl looked at his dad.

"What about?" Carl asked holding his wive's hands looking at his dad. 

"Belle needs to choose which side she's gonna stay loyal to. Us or Negan." Rick said looking at the two. Belle sighed. 

"If Belle chooses Negan. We will be holding her hostage to get Negan to surrender. If she chooses us, we will protect her from everything and leave her here to protect Alexandria with you, Carl."Rick said. Carl looked over at his wife. 

"Rick, If I turn on Negan, He will kill me. He will kill me in cold blood in front of everyone. Make a show of my death. I can be on yours. Be your inside to the saviors. If Negan dies, All the others would look to me for leadership. I'm next in line to be the leader of the saviors. It's in the job description. Please don't make me choose between living or dying. Because If I want to live I have to choose Negan."Belle said holding her son close to her. Rick sighed. 

"Fine your choice. But you won't see Carl until the war is over. Same with your son. You have time until we leave."Rick said 

"Dad you can't do that. Dan needs Belle."Carl said looking at his son.

"He will be fine. "Rick said as he then left. Belle sighed and she leaned back. She looked over at her husband.

"If you die during this war I'm gonna kill him, Belle," Carl said looking at her. 

"Don't I'll be fine. Rick knows that if he kills me Negan will have a new fire to take down Rick. He also knows you would not consider him your father anymore. " Belle said. Carl sighed and he just laid down and he thought. 

Time went on faster then anyone wanted to. Belle was holding her son tightly in her arms as she was holding him tight. She didn't want to say goodbye. Carl held her in his arms as they were having a family hug. Carl had his forehead against his Belle's. 

"I love you,"Belle said softly tilting her head before she gave him a soft kiss. Carl kissed back sadly and he pulled away. 

"I love you too,"He whispered as he then was given his son and he held Dan in his arms. He looked at his love and he wiped away her tears. 

"We will be fine. We will be right here waiting for you." Carl said. Belle nodded and she gave Carl one last hug before she kissed Dan's head and went to Rick's car. She wasn't given a gun. She wasn't given anything. But her arms were tied behind her back with a zip tie. She leads them to where the Saviors were. Once there they all lined up. She was in front of the cars with Rick pointing his gun at her head. the barrel of his gun was in view while Rick was behind the tin shield protecting himself. 

After a while, Negan came out. 

"What do we have here. Keeping my girl hostage Rick?" Negan asked looking at Belle. Belle was also gagged with a rag so she couldn't talk. 

"If you don't surrender now. I will shoot and kill her." Rick said looking at Belle. 

"Oh, You wouldn't wanna shoot my girl now. But I wouldn't care if you do. Pull the trigger, Rick. Let's see if you can kill someone you know. Let's see if you can do what you couldn't do to your own son the day we met." Negan said provoking the man. Rick cocked the gun. 

"Don't test me Negan! All I need is for you to surrender and there will be no bloodshed." Rick said. 

"Sorry, Rick But I'm not giving up. Dwight, Why don't you get our friend Gregory. I know you got the hilltop on your side, Rick." Negan said smiling. Belle tuned out the world. Waiting for the bullet to hit her skull. What felt like seconds was hours when Rick pulled the trigger.