fix me || • ksj •

contradictions

We all froze for a few seconds taking the situation in hand, I begin to release my grip on Yoongi's hand and he moves back to the sitting position he was in before. I glance over at Jin whose expression was covered in a mix of shock, disgust and who knows what else.

I quickly yank my skirt down but I have a feeling that Jin has seen my scars already, I fidget uncomfortably and move my gaze from Jin to my lap.

"Hey, you alright?" Yoongi asks calmly, I raise my head thinking how he can be so calm in a situation like this, I'm worried that Jin might get the wrong idea of what just happened. 

Jin shakes his head and scoffs slamming the door behind behind him. Yep. He got the wrong idea alright. I grab my bag from beside the piano and fling it onto my shoulder ready to go after him.

"I would leave it if I were you" Yoongi suggests collecting sheets of lyrics up from his desk "Let him cool down, he will be alright in a couple of hours"

"I don't really know what to say to him" I confess tapping my foot on the floor nervously "He doesn't even like me so what's the point" I say in a huff contradicting myself. I secure the strap of my bag and walk towards the door.

"(Y/n)" Yoongi asks, I whip my head round to face him, he looks down and starts to switch on his computer "There is a vending machine at the end of the corridor, I have some money if you want to get something" he offers reaching into his pocket and I hear the familiar sound of coins rustling together. 

I feel a wave of sickness come over me and an uneasy  sensation erupts in my stomach. I blink a couple of times and take in short breaths to try and steady my heartbeat. I feel my vision go blurry but I manage to get my vision back by closing my eyes and opening them suddenly. Luckily Yoongi hasn't noticed my current state so I reply to him as calmly as I could.

"Thank you for the offer but I'm still full from breakfast" I manage to get out without wanting to gag "Do you want anything? I can get it for you if you want"

"Nah I'm okay thanks, I will get something later" he sighs while he looks at his new tracks on his computer screen "But make sure you have something, yeah" He demands glaring at me for a split second.

I hum in response, then I puff out my cheeks, turn and exit the room hoping that I can get to the toilet soon, just in case I start to feel worse.

I gently close the door behind me and speed walk down the corridor, kinda hoping that I will bump into Jin to give him a quick run-down of what happened in Yoongi's studio.

"Oh my god" I quickly repeat multiple times, starting to feel a lot worse, I feel sweat forming on my forehead and I move towards the wall in search of extra support. I inhale deeply and let out a shaky breath trying to grasp my senses.

I rub my eyes then the rest of my face in aggravation and a wave of sickness comes over me again, I place my hands against the wall and look down waiting for my vision to clear up, I start to feel light-headed and familiar black orbs cover my sight. I feel my body slide down onto the floor and I hold my head trying to refrain from crying.

"(Y/n)?" I hear a soft muffled voice from behind me "Are you okay?" I could only just make out the shape of his face and his blond-ish hair before my vision became worse, only being able to make out certain shapes and voices.

"Jimin, what happened?" I pick out Taehyung's unique voice as his footsteps become quicker and more urgent as they come closer.

"I-I don't know, I think she might have fainted" He says in a hurry and I feel his hands gripping onto my shoulders.

"(Y/n)?" I groan quietly as I feel my body being shaken "(Y/n)!" He repeats but I couldn't find the strength to move and respond.

"What's happening?" I hear another type of footstep rhythm come around the corner, the rhythm is somewhat elegant with a tinge of toughness mixed together. Strange I know but Jin's footsteps are the easiest to decipher.