fix me || • ksj •

decisions

"So what do we do?" Yoongi rushes as I hear him walk into the dorms, footsteps of the other members follow behind him, I nervously walk into the living room where everyone sits down waiting for Yoongi to come up with a suggestion.

I bite the inside of my cheek and wait for the silence to blow over, Yoongi looks over at me then turns to everyone else in the room. I shuffle slightly towards Yoongi with Jin standing the other side of him, the other members hovered around fiddling with their fingers.

"Why don't we make a statement, isn't that the easiest option" Jimin points out cutting into the silence, I nod my head in agreement, after all we can't have people thinking the wrong idea but I'm worried about how people will take this.

"Why did I help (Y/n) home, I should have just left her" Yoongi whispers to himself putting his head in his hands, I couldn't say that what he just said didn't hurt me, it seems like that wasn't meant for me (or anyone) to hear. I look down annoyed at myself for collapsing and being a burden to the other members, I glance up and see Jin's eyes follow mine, he looks at me with sympathy but I turn my head to release myself from his sight.

"(Y/n) just had to collapse, didn't she" Yoongi angrily says under his breath, I look away again and bite my lip just wanting to leave the room, only Jin seemed to react to his words so I'm guessing that the other members didn't hear him.

I suddenly feel a presence next to me and I look up to see Jin's face with his wide shoulders above me, I feel his hand rub my back soothingly but he quickly stops and walks back to where he was positioned before. I smile to myself and nod my head at him, thanking him for his support.

"I say that we make a statement and make sure that (Y/n) isn't seen as much and when she is, she is seen with different members so not to bring suspicion" Namjoon states questionably, everyone pauses thinking about their options.

"I agree, I don't think (Y/n) should be cut off from our team and I definitely think that she should be around the other members to stop the false rumours" Jimin agrees quickly, I start to feel like I'm not still in the room and I move to make myself more known.

"If you want to, that is" Jin adds directed at me, I think for a moment weighing my options around, I really hope this is a good idea, I know how some ARMY's can be and I don't want to be someone that one of the biggest fanbases hate.

"Y-yeah, I'm just a little nervous that's all" I admit, my voice getting quieter as I continued to talk "How do you think everyone will react?"

"That's the bit I'm not too sure about" Namjoon states rubbing the back off his head "I think people will forget once the statement is out" I bite my lip not really agreeing with his last words, I turn to face the others and see that they didn't really agree either.

"Don't you see" Yoongi says angrily, he looks at me with an emotionless expression, then stands up and walks slowly towards me "People will never forget, my career is ruined and it's all because of you" He says raising his voice while still walking closer, his chest nearly touching mine, my breathing starts to get deeper and I look to the side. I had never seen him this angry before, quite frankly it is quite terrifying, I step backwards trying to stay quiet, trying to keep flashbacks from eroding my mind and sending me into a panic.

"Back off okay, this isn't (Y/n)'s fault" Jin says curling his hand around Yoongi's shoulder and moves him backwards "Just calm down, fans will be alright, they will support us just like normal, okay" I see Yoongi stiffen and he looks up at me through his eyelashes "Yoongi?" Jin questions, Yoongi places his hands on Jin's and pushes them off, he inhales deeply then storms out of the room leaving the door closed behind him.