Tony's panic attacks

Bruce leaves

Bruce had left, he was gone this time, for real. there was no trip. there was no coming back. he was gone. he'd left a note to Tony, stating he was sorry but he didn't deserve Tony, that Tony could do better. that he was sorry leaving just two weeks before the wedding. he was gone. the others worried over Tony for days, watching as he ripped himself apart more and more as the wedding got closer and closer. he knew where to find Bruce, he'd sent him the ring back. he'd sent a note telling Bruce he was a selfish ass and to keep the fucking ring because Tony couldn't find it in his heart to throw it away.

"Stark, take it easy." Steve said. Tony stood on the top of his building, a barrier between him and the team. it would take them a while to get through it. "you don't need to do this." Steve added. Tony ignored him, of course, in favor of loading his revolver. he only put one bullet in, it's all he needed. he spun the chamber and closed it.

"no you're right. I don't need to. I have to." Tony replied, pulling the trigger once. everyone flinched but Tony. "five more tries." Tony muttered. "I figured it fit. I mean he's left six times. the sixth was the final time, so it fit." Tony chuckled bitterly, pulling it a second time. by this point Steve, Natasha, Clint, Thor, and Phil were ripping at his barrier.

"Tony you know where he's at, go get him." Phil said.

"I would go to the ends of the Earth for him. I've hunted him down time after time. it's always been more of a game. he leaves to see if I'll follow. this time, he told me not to." Tony replied, pulling it a third time.

"Tony! stop! right now!" Clint growled. Tony laughed softly.

"make me." Tony replied, pulling it a fourth. "two more." Tony said.

"Tony look I know this is hard but you don't need to do this!" Natasha shouted. "we can bring Bruce back! talk about whats wrong! figure this out! we can help you!" Natasha said.

"DON'T LIE TO ME!!" Tony screamed, pulling it a fifth. a loud bang and Tony dropped instantly.

"Tony!" the shouts rang across New York as the genius collapsed. bursting through the barrier, they raced over to their fallen friend. his arc was still pulsing, but it was fading quickly. Phil pulled his phone out as it rang.

"Tony's having a panic attack." Bruce said softly.

"Tony's dead. he killed himself." Phil replied. the others looked at him, they must've realized it was Bruce.

"h-he what?" Bruce ask.

"he killed himself, because you left." Phil replied, hanging up.

"the ambulance has arrived." Jarvis said.

"I'll take him down." Thor said, speaking for the first time. he scooped up Tony's limp body, he dropped a note from his hand. Thor flew him down. Steve knelt and picked up the note. notes, he found as he opened it. the outer one appeared to be a cover, a blood spattered cover. they each had their own note. Steve frowned and handed the notes out, holding on to Bruce's. he opened his note.     

-Rogers,

I'm an asshole. I know. I hate you with a passion, but there's nothing you could've done to talk me down. had you managed to take the gun from me I would've found another way to kill myself. I know you, don't feel guilty. I wanted to die. it's not your fault. also, I left a box in your room, something I thought you deserved. it'll take your mind back to your day and age old man. it'll let you relive your memories. I've used it a few times, had to make sure it worked. enjoy it.

Stark.-

Steve frowned and looked over at Phil, who was reading his own.

-Phil,