Tony's panic attacks

Maria Stark

"he's waking up." a voice said. he could hear footsteps.

"Tony! can you hear me?" a second voice said. Tony opened his eye's slowly and looked around. the place was destroyed. he gave a confused look to Phil, who was standing over him.

"you kinda went a few rounds with Bruce after you drank a little too much and had a panic attack." Phil said.

"Tony are you okay?" Bruce ask kneeling over him. Tony sat up quickly jerking around. this couldn't be happening, it had all seemed so real. he'd been beating the shit out of Bucky. he'd been killed by Steve.

"no." Tony muttered. the others watched him worriedly.

"Tony? whats wrong?" Bruce ask.

"no. no. no. no. no!" Tony shouted. Bruce stood, motioning for everyone to get back. something was really wrong. Tony looked hysterical as he looked around. he turned around quickly to look at the team, shaking his head. "did I die?" Tony ask.

"well the arc stopped working for a few minutes, but we started it back up." Bruce replied.

"no! thats not fair!" Tony growled. Bruce looked confused.

"whats not fair Tony?" Bruce ask.

"she was right there! right there! I was almost to her! she was right in front of me this isn't fair!" Tony screamed ,his voice cracking mid sentence, turning to slam his fist against the wall. Bruce frowned walking over to Tony.

"Tony? who are you talking about?" Bruce ask softly. Tony's shoulders sagged and he shoved Bruce out of the way, running for the elevator. the moment the doors closed Tony let loose, sobbing into his hands. he's been so close.

"who was he talking about?" Natasha ask curiously.

"I'm going to go find out." Bruce replied, walking to the elevator. he headed up, where he found Tony curled up on their bed, he appeared to be sobbing into a pillow. "Tony?" Bruce ask.

"go away." Tony muttered. Bruce walked over and laid beside him.

"Tony, who was right in front of you?" Bruce ask. Tony didn't say anything for a few minutes, Bruce just watched him, waiting for an answer. after about ten minutes Tony sniffled.

"my mom." Tony managed softly. "she was right there. so close, I could almost touch her, could almost hug her." Tony added, his face buried in the pillow he held tightly. he squeezed it tighter. "could almost tell her how sorry I was, how much I love her. she was right there and I didn't get the chance." Tony sniffled. Bruce pulled him close.

"I'm sorry Tony. I didn't realize.... I didn't want you to die." Bruce said, feeling guilty. Tony let go of the pillow in favor of latching on to Bruce.

"she was so close Bruce. I almost had her." Tony said. Bruce wiped at the tears on Tony's face gently, kissing his forehead.

"I'll be right back okay?" Bruce ask. Tony nodded slightly and let him go. Bruce got up and headed down to the others.

"Bruce who was he talking about?" Phil ask, waiting with a cup of tea for Tony.

"his mom." Bruce replied.

"Maria of course." Steve muttered.

"don't talk about her." Bruce said, glaring at Steve. Steve had actually only come back when Bruce had managed to capture Bucky and turn him into SHIELD. Bruce still didn't like him. "if you would have just let him deal with Bucky himself, he wouldn't be like this. this is your fault." Bruce hissed. Steve seemed shocked. Bruce grabbed the cup of tea. "Phil I need your help." Bruce said. Phil, thought he was hesitant, nodded and followed him.