The Bad And The Broken #Wattys2018

Part 15

We got home about an hour ago. I look at the clock. 1:30 am. Twitch is ok he has two broken ribs and he needed stitches but that's all. When we got home Maddox went straight to our room. Im trying to do the right thing I really am but I don't want to hurt him; to hurt me. Two people have already been hurt by Justin and I can't let him or his gang hurt anyone else.
I'm in the living room watching Netflix when I hear the room door open. I know it's him but he doesn't say anything. Maddox is wearing his jacket and has a bat in his hand.
"Where are you going?"
"Out. I'm helping Mitch with a little problem."
"It's 1:30 in the morning can't it wait."
"No Genevieve it can't just wait."
"Maddox you have already been arrested once in the last 24 hours I don't need you to get in more trouble." I say angrier than anticipated.
"Princess calm down"
"No Maddox I can't do this anymore the guns, the drugs, the fights. I can't do it."
I'm not lying this life is stressful but I love it because I love him. He just can't know that.
"You know this isn't about me Gen this is about you but you just won't tell me." He yells
"So what if it has something to do with me." I yell back
"Stop it stop putting these walls up"
"I would if I could. Why can't you fucking understand that?"
"I'm trying but you won't let me. When I met you you were this broken girl that I wanted to protect I still want too but you have to let me in."
"Well you don't have to protect me anymore." I said it without thinking. I didn't mean it I want him to protect and hold me and love me,God what am I doing.
"So that's it you are just going to throw this all away. Your willing to give up on us just to hide a secret?I guess I was wrong you are just as broken as you were when we met."
He walks past me and slams the front door on his way out. What did I just do. I hear the car pull out the drive way and I'm left standing in silence.
I go to the room and grab my duffel bag and stuff as much clothes in it. I can't stay here. He's just going to kick me out anyway. I mean what do I expect him to be like.Be all lovey-doves and say oh we could still be great friends. That's not how things work this isn't middle school.
He's right I am broken and I always will be there is nothing I can do about it maybe everyone is just better without me. I start heading towards the door when I hear my phone ring.
"Hey" I mutter under my breath.
"Are you ok baby you sound like you've been crying."
"Mom I wanna go home. I want you to pick me up and take me back to Nebraska."
"Honey are you sure that's what you want."
"Yes I don't want to be in New York for awhile."
"Ok we'll be there tomorrow then. Me and your father have been wanting to go and visit anyway. I have to go sweetheart I love you."
"Love you too mom."
I have to get a place to stay for the day it's only 1:45 am and I'm not going to be here when Maddox gets back. I just ruined my life in a matter of minutes and I don't think it will ever get better.