Unexpected (TaeJin)

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WARNING!!:
Slight trigger warning, Tae is going to try and self harm, but it's okay. He won't get to far.

Jin POV

Today's the first day back at work and I'm already having a panic attack. I'm terrified to see TaeHyung, I've been avoiding him for over a week. Maybe he won't even acknowledge me and just go to his seat. But if he does that I'll feel hurt... even though I wouldn't blame him for acting that way towards me. I sigh turning away from the board. As fate would have it, as I turn I catch TaeHyung making his way to the back of the room and take his seat.

"Good morning class," I say looking over the group of students. I look at TaeHyung and my heart sinks. He's not even paying attention, he has his earphones in ignoring me. "I'm sorry for not being here, I was sick."

TaeHyung sighs avoiding eye contact with me. I close my eyes for a moment to breathe. When I open them I see that TaeHyung's actions haven't changed. "Mr. Kim TaeHyung," I say to him. The students all turn back to look at him. Once he realises everyone's eyes are on him he pulls out an earphone and looks to the front of the room. Our eyes meet and I can feel the thick cloud of tension between us. He sits up and says nothing, as he does this he takes his other earphone out and then wraps the cord around his phone. I continue to watch him as he puts his phone back into his pocket.

"Thank you." I say to him a little on the cocky side. He doesn't say anything and just looks at me. It feels like he's tearing me apart with his cold stare. I gulp and turn my attention back to the other students. "Let's take out the notes you've been doing so we can pick up the lesson in the proper place."

I don't like this tension, I need to fix it and let him know that none of this is his fault. After school today I'll try and talk to him, but I don't think I could do it here. I'm pretty sure that YeRin is using that one student as a spy. Speaking of which, I take a look around my class and I don't see the girl who came to me for help. I knew she wasn't my student! That conniving bitch! As soon as I can I'm filing for a divorce!

*END OF SCHOOL DAY*

Tae POV

I'm so glad this day is over, I don't want to spend anymore time in this room with Jin. Actually I wouldn't mind spending time with him but obviously I don't think what we did was impacting. Either that or his wife got to him. I think after school I'm going to take a detour through the park. Grandma wanted me to pick up some sweet potatoes and milk anyway so either way I would be a little late home. The school bell rings and I stand up grabbing my bag and walk towards the door.

"TaeHyung," Jin stops me. He has his arm in front of the door frame blocking my way. "Can we talk? Not here... but, somewhere?" Jin asks as he scans the area. I raise an eyebrow in confusion. "Why?" I ask him. Jin sighs and rubs his face. "I don't know if-"

"That's all I need to hear Mr. Kim SeokJin." I interrupt him. His arm is still blocking me so I dodge down under his arm slipping out of the classroom.

I knew this was gonna happen I just didn't want to believe it so I hid it deep down in my thoughts. Gosh I'm dumb for trying to get with a teacher. Out of all the men in the world and their professions I fell for the married teacher. That shouldn't be a problem right? Nope! But it is. I'm of age so it wouldn't be a pedohphile situation or anything major bad like that.

I look behind me to see if Jin was following me but to my surprise, he's not there. If I know I can't be with him why does it hurt that he's not there?

At times like this, this would be the time I would pull my knife out and make fresh marks. But if I were to do that now, it would be more out of pity for myself. I scoff and roll my eyes at my own thoughts. "I should just get to the shop as quick as I can then get home." I say to myself. I look back at the school once more, he's still not there. I shrug my shoulders and begin to walk to the intersection at the end of the sidewalk.

"Unnie~" a girl says behind me. I glance to see the who the conversation is between. I see that's it's my two classmates Jisoo and Mina. Their friendship is really cute, and they are always showing they care for each other. I wish my friends were still in school or lives near me like they all used to.

"Not here jagiya." Mina muffles. She has a mask on her so it's kinda hard for me to hear what she is saying. "Please Unnie~." Jisoo begs.

I don't looks right behind me but I peek at them from the corner of my eye. Mina sighs and it looks like she takes a quick scan of everything. I advert my gaze to the waking signal that is at the intersection. Once I feel it's safe to take a peek back I can see Jisoo reaching up to hold Mina's face. What are they doing? I wonder if... they are! I feel my jaw drop open as I see them kiss. I didn't know that they were a couple! They must hide it so well! With them both being as close as they are it's no surprise that no one thinks they are an actual couple. Jisoo pulls away and smiles contently at Mina. Mina also smiles as she pulls back up her mask.

That's amazing to see how far same sex couples are coming in this new day and age. I'm happy for Jisoo and Mina, I hope they will have a long and loving relationship together.

I look to the crosswalk and see the light is green. I look side to side and then cross the road. The store isn't to far so my trip there should be quick. I'm betting the walk through the park will be good, but I'm really nervous that I might cut. I know I shouldn't but I still have that urge. I wish I wouldn't have done it the last time... if I could've put it down and said no I could've avoided this urge.

I walk into the store and swiftly make my way through the aisles picking up the sweet potatoes and then making it to the cold aisle to get some milk. Once I have everything I checkout.

"Ooh! Sorry." I say startled as I bump into someone who was walking into the store as I was walking out. The person says nothing but continues into the store. I sniff the air for a second. "Jin..?" I question looking behind me. I swear that was his cologne I just smelt yet I don't see him in the store. That man must've had the same cologne as him. I shrug my shoulders and decide to forget it and make my way to the park.

This is a nice afternoon if I don't say so myself. It's not to cold, not to warm and the air is really breathable so I don't need to put my mask on. I can see kids playing on the playground and parents sitting on the benches talking to one another, probably trying to one up another on how well their child is doing in school.

I wish I was a kid again... it's cliche but true. I remember going out on the weekends with my parents to have picnics by the river and running around with my dog. I miss them... they passed away when I was young from a car wreak. My mom was still alive when they found her but after a couple of days she passed away in the hospital. Her body couldn't fix what had been done.

Damn, these depressing thoughts are really getting to me. I sigh and look over at the woods. Maybe just a couple quick gentle cuts.. nothing to much. I nod and make my way off of the path and into the woods. I'll have to go in a bit, not to much but enough so no one will see me.

"Here should be good enough." I say quietly to myself. I slide my school bag off of my back and put down the grocery bag. I get on my knees and open the front pocket taking out the small blade. I slowly take it out of my bag and take a slow look around making sure it's just me. My wounds have healed from the last time I've cut so I'm going to have to hide them once again.

I crawl over to a tree and lean my back against it. I roll up my sleeve exposing my scared forearm. Some of the scars are dark while others are lighter, probably because some have had more time to heal. I take a deep breath in and prepare to slice my arm.

"TaeHyung! Don't!"

I jolt up and widen my eyes to see Jin standing in front of me. I rub my eyes thinking this is just a dream but as I reopen my eyes Jin is kneeling next to me and taking the knife out of my hand and tossing it away. "Jin-" Jin crashes his lips onto mine.