My Story

At home

Wow you guys really like my life dint ya 14 reads thanks and the best girl in the world want me to continue write so i gonna do it.

I was coming home and as a big surprise no one of my family wasn't home and now you gonna think now this is gonna get boring and so on and maybe it will find out. 

I as normal went up to my room started the computer signed in on facebook and opened my Spotify but i didn't start it, instead i took my guitar and started to play and sing on my favorite song. 

Under the time i was playing i looked over on my facebook i saw that my best friend linney was writing how much she liked having me as a friend and i just started to cry and wrote back " You have no idea how much i love to have you in my life"

And suddenly it hited me again the felling that i need to hurt myself again i runed in to the bathroom to take my razor but i didn't find it, i got angry and pouched my hand in the bathroom wall i wanted to do it so bad. 

When i layed down on the floor with all that pain and anger in me i toughed about what Brian told me a couple of weeks ago that my cutting drugs and other things is becoming a part of me and i think its starts to become true. 

I sat up on the floor and looked on the watch i saw from the bathroom it was 23:33 i walked in to my room again and thinking about call my sister and asking what they are doing, but no i will proberly be beaten for doing it so i think i pass.

I looked on my facebook my crazy twin is writing and only that make me smile 

Crazy -we are so twind

 Me- yea xD

Crazy - * twins Fail

Me - i were likw wtf do that mean haha but i am glad you feel so 

Crazy - LOL  and the reason for that is because you make me happy your like my bestie and i know i can ALWAYS count on you no matter what.

Me - aww i feel the same about you 

Well that was a little off the chat that made me so happy but now i felt the pain and i heard the pain com in front of the front door the family is home oh no i am dead. 

My dome is here dad called on me nicely i got surprised 

Dad - come down please 

i walked down and he had bought food i got another chock but sat down at  the dinner and he didn't do anything until a little brat/ brother named victor screamed look on her arms, the hell broke lose. 

dad grabed my arm and pulled my up on the table and hit me with a pot lids and said you never gonna become anything your fucking slut and how much i wanted to cry i never did i promised my self to never do that around my fameliy to show them how week i am. 

He hit-ed me allot to i falled down on the floor and couldn't move i felt the blood fall from my cheek and then i couldn't fight to stoop the tears from falling, my dad was thinking that i was pathetic. 

It was that day i started to hear the voices in my head the demons yelling the same thing as dad and the blood became my best friend i loved to cut deep womes in my arms i did/does it every day worse the ever before and now i have another friend or i call it friend the drugs everything to come away form this fucking world. 

and now i am gonna be a bad one and end this chapter if you wanna read more keep a look about me and my life on the road to a better life do you wanna read more all ready comment ;)