My Story

My hero

Well now you guys wonder how is my hero can i have a hero? answer on that yes i can and i have my hero is my mom.  My dad was mabe still am i have no idea an alocholic everyday when he was drunk he beated my mom apart i have no idea how many bones in her body he broke. Me and my sister couldent do anything i was 5-6 and she was 10 so insteed of beeing home she was with her friends i was to young to go to anyone so i had to stay home. All i can say lucky my sis she didnt see the half of it, some day me and my mom could be locked in to the bathroom for an complet day here how your day  is screaming and destroying stuff on the other side of the door.

I still here my moms screamin in my head even if it was years ago some stuff i remember like it happend yesterday me and mom was in here bed and i were sitting in her knee when dad came in to the room grabbing her in her hair so hard see was screaming, i feeld of the bed and rund and stod in a corner afraid shaking crying. I remember what he told her he said do you want me to leave he pulled harder in her hair harder and harder her scream she couldent answer she was in to much pain to say a word all she could do was screaming. 

I got angry i hate myself to day cuz i dident do anything but still what can a 5 year old do to a full grown man nothing at all, still i feel thats it is my fault i should protekt her i was sopose to be her protector.

Once i got home at the evening from beeing at our nieghbours house i walked in and heard screaming  they were fighting again and i could smell the alcohole from upstairs so i know whats going on.

Sudently i heard a big bang he hited her then he pushd her down the stairs she was just laying there i tought she was for a few then she tryd to stand up and i got so happy cuz no one never wants to lose her/hes mom at all.

Dad came down jelling on her  that she was weartless she was nothing and i was just thinking ur asshole she has survived 3 carcrashes 2 strokes and have a problem with her heart and you beating her everyday she is the stronges one alive. 

My mom after 2 years of tortyur finally standed up for herself and kicked the asshole out but the pain is always there she promised herself that she would never have a bf ever again and she keept it she got beaten upp for 2 years bcuz she was protekting me and my sister from end up in the same way. 

a cupplel of years went and my mom was telling my sis something down in the livingroom crying i walked down she told me to sitt down so i was like ok i do it. 

Then she looked on me i feelt that some thing was wrong she told me that she had been raped by my dad 2 hours everyday in 2 years to save us from being beaten upp raped or worse.  

I still feel that all that is my fault and i will always feel that way 

All that is the reason why my mom is my hero she saved my life Love you mom<3 :)