My Story

Chapter 5

Ok i gonna write this chapter all about me so u know how it is that writing this and now u guys mabe think why is she writing this now and not in the start i can answer on that right now.

First of all it is cuz u guys mabe gonna understand everything even more and bcuz a person on my facebook told me i was seeking attention and that kinda pissed me off

We can start to say that i have big anorexiaanorexia problems a girl in my age should weigh 45 to 50 but i weigh 35 so the anoxia is killing me i feel that a sip water would make me fat and when u think that something is wrong verry bad.

And anorexia can kill ppl but there is ppl in this that is jokeing around about it so a littel wake upp call plz but some ppl only get it when they got it sadley enough.

I was envolved in a car crash were i lost many of my friends and two of my fameliy members so it has taken hard on me mabe one of the reasons i am deppressed.

I have taken druges as u guys already know for 2 years bcuz a dude in my school puted a drug in my drink so thats how that really started.

And i gett beaten up by my dad as u allready know it arent were fun that someone in ur fameli does that to you just bcuz he feel bad for his drinking problems it arent fun to beaten at all but someone has to feel the pain cuz if someone dosent how it is when u dont have it?

Thats something u can walk around and think on all the time it a thing that goes round and round in my head everyday.

Broken heart as well that have happend to and it is something gonna happen to everyone cuz the last asshole isent born yet bad enough it hurts the most to be so close and have to say and then find out that you have to walk away cuz the one u love is happy with someone else. And u really love that one so much that u let it go and walking a way just to let the one u love beeing happy.

That is my normal life cuz i am to shy to say does three words the words that is I LOVE U

how hard can it be it hurts for a wile and if u dont do it it can hurt you forever so what can du do live in pain forever or for a littel wile i cant answer that you know the pain when you get a tex and for some strange reason you know that it is your crush you feel that u cant control ur body it feels like your heart have stoped beating and you have this strange feeling in your stomack yeah that one i have that feeling right now and i have no idea why i have it all the time but yeah what ever i dont care anymore.

And now i wanna say thanx to some ppl that mean the world to me with out you guys i wouldent stopp cuting and u make me feel so happy every day so thanx Irena Dodevska and Demi lovato and my lovely sky summers love u all<3