Coffee [Completed]

Chapter 26

{Yerin}

"What are you doing here, did anyone see you, anyone follow you?" 

"I don't know, but I was gonna text you tomorrow, but I couldn't sleep and I'm leaving soon for the States for some concerts and I know I'd hate myself if I don't tell you now, but I wanted to talk about earlier" he said in between heavy breaths. I knew this would happen eventually

"Look, I'm sorry for doing that.....to you......kissing you I mean"

"You can though" 

"What"

"Kiss me....I mean"

"Ohhh...I.... well if you want-" and before I knew his lips were on mine. I found my hands in his hair and his hand went from cupping my face to pulling me closer by the waist. He kissed me like his life depended on it, but it turned into something soft after that. I don't know how long we were together for, but I felt like I needed to kiss this boy forever. We broke apart to catch our breath 

"Yeah I want that" he said and I could see his smile despite the dark, he was leaning in again until I put my finger to his lips

"What"

"No more kisses until we talk"

"About???" he pouted confused

"Why didn't you kiss me back" I said sincerely and he loosened his grip around me so we could see each other clearly

He sighed heavily "I was confused because I didn't know what anything before meant either, if you were flirting or not, which is also my part because we agreed to be friends even though I really wanted us to be something more from the start-"

"Wait you lied?"

"Ahhhh at the restaurant? yeah, you shot me down so quickly that I did it to save face" he said looking at the ground "Then I thought okay we should just be friends like she wanted, but after talking and hanging out I realized I couldn't just be friends with you, so I was trying to woo you sort of. I wanted to get to know you and the more I did the more I knew I liked you. So I was shocked that you kissed me at all so I couldn't really register anything in that moment. But really I was scared too... because I haven't felt what I'm feeling for you in a long time, and I don't want to mess it, this, whatever we are up.  And that's why I could kiss you then" 

"I meant what I said at the restaurant, but now I'm not sure, because I do like you....but dating-"

"Then we won't date" and I felt my heart drop, because while it's the best move, it wasn't great to hear either

"publicly of course" and he grinned that damn grin of his which made me punch him

"First you hit me with a door twice, pounce on me, and now punching me, I can't believe this relationship "

"When did I pounce on you?!?!?"

"Oh just admit you were feeling me up the second time you attacked me with a door"

"You just need to stand in a different place'

"My place is with you" he said casually

"You're so greasy" 

"You basically admitted to being in a relationship with this grease ball"

"Relationship huh???" 

"I complain and all you got out of it was the pouncing part. You didn't even question when I said relationship" he said proudly 

"Tae-"

"Don't we didn't even give it a try yet"

"The reason idols breakup is because of busy schedules, do you think we have the luxury of time to be together?" and I was staring at him, the truth and reality between us

"You make me happy, don't I deserve to be happy?" he said softly and I felt my heart grow in size for this boy in front of me

"Do you want to be together? Yes or no?"

"If we we're doing different things in our lives then of course yes"

"But we're not"

"It's not that I don't want to"

"Then stop making excuses and lets be together"

"Then what if someone found out, do you know how crazier our lives will get, and I'm a girl, you don't get what it would be like. I'm thinking about the future okay, and myself, does that make me selfish?"

"But I'm an idol too Yerin I know exactly what that is like" we both knew what he meant the hate we both got for misleading incidents, me and my pikachu doll, his singing at their first win "I tell you how I feel after everything, after you kissed me-"

"Tae we should just both sleep"

"No because you're ignoring me and the situation" he said 

"No because I think we should sleep and think about it"

"How could I sleep peacefully when I know you're lying to yourself, to me"

"Nothing I said was wrong, you and I both know it" 

"Then why did you kiss me? Why did you kiss me first huh? Did you just do it do it and not expect anything from it? You can't just go kissing people and act this way"

I wanted to respond but felt my voice getting caught in my throat

"You know you're hurting yourself and me, before anyone else is"