Coffee [Completed]

Chapter 6

{Yerin}

October 2014

"Thank you, thank you, thank you"

I couldn't believe it, I actually just finished filming my debut MV, we just finished filming our debut MV. Since I joined, there had been a lot of line-up changes for the group. We planned to debut as 7 in the summer, but girls were absent and complications came about and girls left. Eunbi another girl from BigHit came in the summer time and trained fairly fast, but she's good I like her alot, she's very cute and we share the same last name. From BigHit came two Eunbi's and they're both talented, the other is Hwang Eunbi who gonna be our main dancer and visual. We all knew she was receiving the first title, she has very sharp moves but we thought Sojung would be the visual despite being the leader. Eunbi is very pretty though she has an oval face and nice eyes, some people say she looks like Jessica.....I don't see it, maybe distant cousins if anything. 

I'm so happy the way we are now though, I think things happen for a reason so I just do my best along with it. As 6, there's Sojung, me, two Eunbi's, Yuna, and Yewon and we're gonna debut next month as GFRIEND. I also really love our name, it is much better than World Peace one of our other options. We were also assigned our stage names, but the company thought my name now fit me best, my real name, Yerin, and I think so too. As face of the group, I want to be the group's energy. I've been waiting a long time but everything is also happening so fast. When we listened to our EP, I couldn't help but cry. 

*one week later*

"I'm sorry. We're gonna have to push it back"

"Again? What for now? Everything's done though, our names, teasers, mv, what is it?"

Mr. So Sungjin and Sojung were going back and forth. Despite everything being completed, he he had just told us to wait again because our debut isn't happening next month. I wanted to cry, I think I was. Looking down at my feet, the room got quiet because we all didn't know what to say. I felt my heart stinging a bit, like someone stuck a pin in it, like there was a pain but it wasn't excruciating, just very uncomfortable and heavy. My vision was blurry, and my sneakers became darker, which was when I realized my tears were falling right over them in little drops. 

"I'm so sorry" Sojung said teary eyed "we haven't even debuted and I can't even better our situation, I'm so sorry"

She looked so pained; of all of us she has been waiting the longest. I know she wanted to cry, but refused to because she wanted to be strong for us. 

"Don't think it's your fault Sojung, we know it's not" Yewon said and motioning to the rest of us, we all went in a group hug around Sojung, around each other. 

I needed to leave the basement. I went outside for walk, for fresh air. I don't know how long I had been walking, my feet just kept moving . The sun has disappeared for some time now and street lights were turning on, but I wasn't tired. I just felt timeless, like I had just been living in these moments for nothing and that everything was feeling the same. With one foot in front of the other I kept on walking, until I realized how worried the girls might be . I didn't have my phone or any money, so I just went back in the direction I came. 

Hungry. I wasn't hungry at all ,but passing some shops, the smell of ramen and street food engulfed me and my stomach growled loudly. I wanted to eat everything I saw but I had no cash and it also goes against my diet. But screw a diet, I didn't even know when I'd be debuting. 

Two blocks from Source, I waited at the light to turn green. Asking the person next to me, I learned it was already past 8pm. I felt so exhausted, my brain felt weighed down but eventually I was back into our practice room. Yewon and Sojung were sleeping on the floor. I decided to lay next to them, hoping this feeling I had felt for the past hours would go away.