Breath in, breath out... slow... steady...I keep telling myself to try a calm down. Your okay. You'll be fine. Everything will be okay.
Fucking lies! I'm screaming and yelling inside my head! outside I'm breathing loudly, I breath in and out but I can't catch up.
I can feel my tears slowly roll down face. Why? Why the hell am I crying? I hate this, and I hate myself. Calm down. NO!
Breath in, breath out faster and faster. My heart is beating at the speed of sound and don't think that I'm exaggerating. This is all 100% honesty.
But unless you have experienced this yourself, you won't understand this feeling. Heart racing, tears rolling, lungs not working fast enough.
This horrible feeling, of breathing in and out. It's not just breathing, it's a state of complete shock, were your suffering.
Calm down... breath in... breath out... I wish I could, but I can't... Breath faster, faster, faster, faster, continuing.
I'm a broken record playing over and over. I can't stop, I can't pause, I just continue... Always the same thing again and again:
Cry. Breath in. Cry. Breath out. I'm pulling my fucking hair out. Breath in, in. Breath out. Cry. It's a mess. I can never stop.
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Mental Disturbance
Short StoryThis is everyday. Just my experiences. My soul, and mentality. I hope you enjoy reading. **NOT RECOMMENDED TO READ IF YOU HAVE/HAD ANY MENTAL DISORDER**
