The Return

Chapter 7: Confused

Dexter's POV

Days passed after the seminar, the school announced that there will be no classes for today because the teachers will also have their seminar but different from what we did. And I don't like staying here at house because when I do, I think a lot. Especially that I don't have anyone to talk to. My mother works far away from here. She only comes back every weekends and sometimes not. But I understand her. She has to work for us to live a good life especially that my father already passed away. But sometimes, I complain because I am also longing for her presence amd attention.

Neither did I talk or approach her after the seminar.

I don't know what to feel right now. I have mixed feelings. I don't know whether I'm happy or not. Depressed or not. Since Kezia left us, my world crumbled. And now, here's Cheska. She makes my mind go crazy. I am confused now, really. I see Kezia in her eyes. The way she acts right now is totally Kezia! I held my chest feeling my fast heart beat. For whom it beats? For Kezia or for Cheska? Or maybe it's a sign that I should love another person now because the person once I loved is now gone.

I really have to make sure about my feelings. And why do I still have to love Kezia? She already rejected me before, right? But I didn't give up for I want to feel her love and be entwined by it. But I was not able to do that. How would I continue pursuing her if she's already gone?

She's got the eyes of innocence. The face of an angel. And Cheska does as well. Who would mind to help me? My heart is aching too bad, too good? I'm not sure.

But... Maybe it's time for me to love another... Maybe it's a sign. I shouldn't be confused. The time is running. I should make the most out of it. If I like the person, I should tell it right away. Unlike what I did to Kezia. I wasn't confident enough to approach her before about my feelings.

"Inhale, exhale." I whispered.

"You can do it Dexter, you can." I picked up the telephone and dialed Cheska's name.

Eventually, she answered it. "Hello Cheska, this is Dexter. Can we talk? If that's okay with you. I just want to clear things up with you."

"Huh? Why all of a sudden? Where?" she responded.

"I'll just go there in your house. Is that okay?"

"Yes, yes. That's okay. There would be no problem at all." I ended the call and quickly went to their house.

When I arrived there, I knocked the door and I was surprised that she immediately opened the gate. She was already there waiting for me.

"Yes, Dexter?" she walked near me wearing that deadly smile. Here we go again Dexter. I can't resist looking at her. Especially when she smiles like that.

"I just love that smile of yours. I can't resist it." I said unconsciously.

Did I say that?!! I facepalmed. Take it slowly Dexter!

I looked at her blushing. She turns red. Hahaha. So cute.

"Cute." I squeezed her cheeks. These cheeks that I'd always want to pinch.

She blushes even more. I couldn't help it but to laugh silently.

"I'm sorry if I didn't talk to you these past few days." I told her.

"I've noticed that." she pouted.

"It's because..."

"Because?"

"I was confused. Not confused anymore. I have already found it out." I responded looking down the ground. Afraid to lift my head up.

"Huh?"