"All right." Luke enters the cell. "The admirals don't like it, but we're going to try."
"Try what?" Ben asks. R2 sounds like it's cheering.
"Practicing. You never finished your training."
Ben shakes his head. "That's not-"
"We agreed not to leave the cell. That's one of the conditions. Also, that someone be monitoring it at all times." Luke smiles. "Nothing new from Snoke?"
It's been two months since his last communication. Ben shakes his head. He almost wants the Supreme Leader to enter his head, just so he can find out how Rey is. She'll be three, almost four, months along now. Is she showing yet? he wonders. If she were dead, or the baby were dead, Ben knows Snoke would be taunting him. Being trapped in this cell day in and day out, while Rey suffers who knows what, is torture enough for him. It should be me suffering, not her.
And still, he can't bring himself to tell Luke or his mother about Rey's pregnancy. It's all my fault.
Coming here was a waste.
No, Ben tells himself. That's not true.
"Ah, Ben," says another voice. Lando Calrissian climbs through the door. "I heard you were back." And he embraces Ben like he's never left.
"Lando finally convinced the admirals to let you train," Luke says.
"Reminded them of my own story," Lando says gently. "I once sold out your father."
At least Father survived that, Ben thinks. I killed him.
Lando grasps the back of Ben's neck. "He'd be proud that you're here."
Will you help me?
Anything.
Did his father think he was totally gone, truly dead, when the lightsaber pierced his heart? Was his caress meant to be a farewell for the both of them? Or was it forgiveness?
Ben knows it's the latter, and that's what he clings to. His father's forgiveness. In the end, Han Solo did bring him home. Han Solo saved him. Han Solo, and Rey.
But would Father truly be proud of him? What would he think if he knew what happened to Rey, a girl he cared about? If he knew his son loved her, and she loved him, and they had a child Snoke was plotting to raise from the Dark Side?
He'd keep fighting. And the best way for Ben to do that now is to train with Luke. Though Ben knows, someday, he may find himself on a bridge, facing a child confused about killing him.
Not if you get to Snoke first.
"Here." Luke tosses Ben Rey's lightsaber, Grandfather's lightsaber. "I'll use the one you created. It's got a cracked crystal, so this one will be better for training-"
Ben ignites it, studies the blue flame. In this lightsaber, there is only power and possibility-ghosts perhaps, but none of them his own. He didn't kill Han with this weapon.
It is you.
Come back for me!
He shakes his head, switching it off and holding it back out towards Luke. "It's Rey's. It answers to her."
"Rey's not here right now," Luke says softly. "I think it will work better for you while we're-"
A lump in his throat, Ben thrusts the lightsaber closer. "It's Rey's." It should be her training, not me.
Luke nods, taking it back and tossing the other one to Ben.
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•LEGACY - A Reylo Story•
Fanfiction*WRITTEN PRE-TROS, POST TLJ* When a ship crashes near the Resistance base, Finn and Poe are shocked to discover Kylo Ren. What does he want? And where is Rey? And as for Kylo, he must decide how much he can trust them with what he knows about Snoke...