Love, Tears, and Music (Brendon Urie)

〰Northern Downpour〰

Mya's POV
The next morning after the concert I was awaken by idiotic screaming from Brendon and the rest of the boys, so I rubbed my eyes and went out to the couches only to see everyone laughing. I started laughing too, since Brendon and Tony's laugh were severely contagious. Brendon sees me walk in and he immediately gets up to hug me, kissing my cheek and grabbing my hand to lead me to the couches.

Tony frowns at Brendon and gets up to leave the tour bus, I look over at him and look out the window to see Tony at a wall and punching it. I am instantly filled with guilt as Brendon puts his hand on my waist, his hand rubbing my back up and down. "Let him cool off Mya, he gets jealous easily." Brendon speaks with his deep raspy voice, which kind of turns me on. I take a deep breath as I look at Brendon, sitting down on the couch with him.

We chatted for over an hour when Tony comes back, his knuckles covered with bruises and blood. "Tony, baby..." I rush over to Tony and look at his hands before hugging him, and when we part I go to the bathroom to get the first aid kit to clean up his knuckles. I clean up his knuckles and bandage them both, kissing both hands one at a time. Tony smiles as he kisses my cheek and goes to our bedroom to rest, and I went back out to where Brendon was.

"Sorry, I had to clean Tony's hands. He tends to punch walls and things when he's angry." I tell him as we chat more, Brendon scooting closer to me every now and then. We got so close that Brendon's forehead was touching mine, and Brendon breaks the silence "Mya...I wish you could see how much I love you." I sit there frozen and unsure about what to say, Brendon loves me? I open my mouth to speak but I am interrupted by Brendon crashing his lips on mine.

Sparks flew like crazy, more than when I kissed Tony which upsetted me slightly but I couldn't help but kiss back. We pulled away and stared at each other before sitting back down, and all I could think about was the kiss. Did I make the wrong decision getting together with Tony? What will he do if he finds out about the kiss? My thoughts are interrupted by Brendon putting his hand on my knee, assuring me that everything's okay.

After a few hours Tony is awake and the boys are back from whatever they were doing so we all decided to go out for lunch. I went into my bedroom and got out my suitcase, picking my clothes for today:

When I come back out Tony grabs my hand and Brendon smiles at me before we start to drive to a downtown deli. We ended up going to schlotzsky's which was mine and Brendon's favorite sandwich place, we all sat down and waited on our orders while making conversation. After lunch we decided to take a small stroll on the town, stopping at the mall and record shops.

Which of course I had to add to my endless collection of vinyls. We all seemed to have the same taste in music so we would bond over it, talking about musicians from the Beatles to Palaye Royale. After our day in the town we were now headed to our next tour destination: Sacramento, California. Our road trip was consisted of Mario Kart completions, dirty truth or dare, and endless naps. When we got to Sacramento I was awaken my Dallon who pointed at a sleeping Brendon that had his arms around my hips.

I shook Brendon to wake him so we could get ready, in which I went back to my suitcase to wear something better for the concert. After an hour I finally put an outfit together:

After waiting for another hour it was soundcheck time, which consisted of us all goofing off into the microphones. Before I performed my guitars and ukulele were all put out, and a single stool with a microphone was sitting at the front in the middle. And once again I got completely nervous since this venue had more people than the last, about over 300,000 screaming fans were waiting to see me and the boys perform.

I take a deep breath and before I go outside Tony kisses me good luck and then let's me go, I go out on stage and am immediately met with the screaming of hundreds of thousands of fans waiting for me to play. I waved to the crowd and they roared even more, making me a little bit more nervous. "Holy shit guys, there's so many of you! Hello Sacramento, I'm Mya Wentz and I'll be opening up for Panic! At The Disco. Enjoy." I grabbed my bass guitar and sat in the stool, starting out with my first hit 'Monsters'.

After my performance I high five all the boys as they go on stage, hearing the crowd erupt in screaming once again. Tony congratulated me as we watched from the side of the stage, Tony's arm never leaving my waist. After the show I was pulled on stage to bow and say goodnight to the crowd, and we all ran to the tour bus. I went to my bedroom to change into my sweatpants and a sports bra, I looked in the full length mirror that was in the bedroom and pinched my stomach fat.

'Wow, I'm still fat. I need to lose weight' I thought to myself, but before I could think anything else Tony came in. He noticed I was about to cry to he hugged me from behind, leaving one tender kiss on my neck. I took a deep breath as I took off all my makeup and got ready for bed, deciding I'd sleep on the couch since I wanted to be alone. I got my pillow and a blanket, putting them on the couch and getting comfortable before staring at the ceiling of the tour bus.

I heard some shuffling before I saw a figure stand up from the couch and coming over to me, laying next to me. And from the smell of the man I knew exactly who it was, it was Brendon. He hugged me tight knowing something was wrong and all I could do was sob quietly, eventually falling asleep afterwards. The next morning I was awoken to a furious Tony, who pushed Brendon off the couch we shared and looked at me in fury. "Mya. Outside. Now."

I nod before going outside with Tony, grabbing my fuzzy cardigan on the way out since it was cold. Tony breathed heavily before looking at me and speaking "Mya, why was he laying with you? Are you cheating on me?" I shook my head quickly and grabbed one of Tony's hands. "No Tony, I would never do that to you. I thought I was alone on the couch so I cried softly until I heard him move over to me and cuddle me. He was just trying to calm me down Tony. I'm sorry..." I said as tears streamed down my face, and Tony wiped them away with his thumbs.

"I will never be enough for you Mya and I will never forgive myself for what I'm about to say....but Mya, I'm breaking up with you. It's not you, it's me..." Tony leaves me in more tears and screaming, coming back out with all of his luggage that he brought with him on the tour. He called Vic to pick him up while I screamed out to him, begging him to stay. And then I noticed Tony was crying too, he kissed me one last time before getting in the car with Vic.

And at that moment, my world was falling apart....