For Fuck's Sake

c r u s h

Remember how I told you guys about a rumour going on about me in the previous rant?

Mk.

There is a rumour going on about me and my crush.

You guys think it's amazing but it's not.

You see, I'm on the verge of being flattered and completely annoyed because this rumour is going around in the class above me.

ARGH.

GIRL/BOY, DATING IN INDIA BEFORE YOU FINISH SCHOOL IS LIKE COMMITTING A SIN.

AND DATING IN SOUTH INDIA?

*dies*

It's not like my crush thinks I'm non existent.

We know each other, say hi and bye and whatever and I know him basically.

Like I don't know his personal shit, but I know his name and birthday and all that.

So I wonder why he suddenly stopped talking to me.

why?

Because of those rumours smh.

One girl told my best friend that I apparently have 'bad taste,' and I was like bish TF.

THIS IS A CRUSH.

THIS IS TEMPORARY.

I'M NOT GONNA MARRY THE GUY.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?

I dig guys with a deep, swoon worthy voice and practically guys who I find attractive.

Skin colour doesn't matter.

You're attractive to me, then that's fine.

And tbh, I barely even knew my  crush.

I just know that he is a guy, I know his b'day, I know his full name, but I didn't know him.

You get me?

I didn't know him on a personal level.

So it is a mere crush.

And it annoys the fudge out of me when girls are like..

'i will marry my crush.'

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These girls are crazy or smth smh.

YOU WON'T MARRY YOUR MIDDLE SCHOOL CRUSH.

FINE YOU MIGHT MARRY HIM/HER BUT IF YOU LIVE IN INDIA, I DOUBT IT LMAO.

and some girls are borderline obsessed with their crush while here I am trying to start up a conversation, or standing in the corner because I'm too nervous to start one and hoping he'll talk.

but nothing happens and we both go our separate ways, and I try my best not to stare at him and succeed.

*Sighs*

I don't care about rumours.

It just gets annoying because, well, it's your life and it's none of their business.

And when I have a crush, I do not make it obvious.

I told me Best Friend that I have a crush and she was like 'YOU HAVE A CRUSH? YOU?'

Yes.

Me.

The one who everyone thought was emotionless has a crush.

And girls/boys, having a crush does not make you non independent or clingy. Well that depends, but to the people who are non obsessive about their crush like me, you are still a very independent person.

And this crush is fading away slowly, so I'm kinda relieved.

My crush on the guy has reduced by infinity percent. But that 0.000001% in me still has a crush on him.

this sucks.

truly.

But when I know it's fading away, and when I know it's natural and happens to everyone, I am like, THANK GOD I AM NOT LIKE THOSE OBSESSIVE PEOPLE.

AND MY CRUSH DOESN'T HAVE SOCIAL MEDIA.

FML.

I'm ranting about this guy because I have never talked about my crush to anyone except my best friend.

and I told her after six months of having a crush on him.

Imagine the number of secrets I have smh.

And my crushes last reaaalllyyy long.

Like looong.

Anyone relate?

No?

Okies.

Thanks for reading my rant lmao.

And just a note.

Don't listen to music while ranting.

It's distracting asf.