When I got home I realized something. I am a week clean. No scars for a week. I am very proud of myself.
"Luke!" I yelled.
"I'm right here," he said from the couch right infront of me.
"Oh. Well guess what."
"What?"
"Im a week clean!" I said and he hugged me, smiling into my shoulder.
"Im sooo proud of you," his voice was muffled into my hair. He pulled away. "So proud that we are going out to dinner."
"Really?"
"Yes and wear something nice," I went upstairs and continued reading my new book, The Fault in our Stars.
"I'm in love with you, and I'm not in the bisiness of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I am in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I'm in love with you."
"Augustus," I said again, not knowing what else to say. It felt like everything was rising up in me, like I was drowning in this weirdly painful joy, but I couldnt say it back. I couldnt say anything back. I just looked at him and let him look at me until he nodded, lips pursed, and turned way placing the side of his head against the window.
I had finished the chapter, so I decided to stop. I hadnt read much but hey, whatever works. I decided to sing a little. Luke texted me and said he would be back soon so I could sing my lungs out. Now I have to choose a song. I finally decided on Lightweight by Demi Lovato.
***
I finished the song panting. Out of nowhere I hear clapping. My head snaps up to see a smirking Robbie standing in my doorway.
"How did you get in?" I asked.
"Nobody answered the door so I let myself in."
"Why are you here?"
"I wanted to see you."
"Why?"
"So many questions" he groaned.
"There would be less if you answered them."
"I wanted to see you to do this," He walked towards me quickly and placed his lips on mine. I missed the soft feeling of his lips. But dont get me wrong I did NOT kiss back. I wanted to. But I didnt.
I pushed him away.
"Are you out of your freaking mind?!" I yelled at him.
"Not completely," he joked. I raised an eyebrow and he did the same mockingly.
"You think this is funny?" I asked.
"Sorta," he said in a thick british accent.
"Well its not," I know. Stupid comeback. "Why are you still here?!"
"Well you havent kicked me out yet...so..." I pushed him out my door. Now to find something to wear to dinner with Luke.
Luke POV
I know I should tell her. Thats why her and I are going to dinner tonight. I just dont know how to tell her about Monday. I just dont know. I am pacing in my room.
I just dont know how I'm going to tell her that I'm leaving again.
Ummm...... I dont know what to say. You are superkagifragilistickexpialidotios. I think I spelled that right. But really. 1.4k reads is sooo crazy. I squealed when I found out. I told my mom, my dad, my step dad, my soon to be step mom, my sister, my best friend, and sooooooo many other people.
